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Happy mother's day




Happy Mother's day to all of the beautiful women out there on this beautiful day! I wish I could hug you all and give you some roses. You are all strong beyond any storm and you are wise with great advise that should written down for the history books. Either we know each other personally or not ; I am grateful for you and for what you do in life. You make an impact in this world even if you don't always get the credit you deserve, you are the light in this world and you do so much for others.We has women are all mothers even if we have children or not (I have fur babies), we are Mothers at the end of the day.

Women are nurtures even when we don't want to be in a moment, it's in our blood; we are when it comes to the tiniest of creatures around or show kindness to a stranger's child because if it was our child ; we would want someone to do the same for ours. And yes it might be ingrained in your minds to be the way, we are but I like to think it's an unspoken gift that God gave us because we can handle those shoes just right.

As I am sitting here, typing this up in my own garden; I finally understand what my grandmother has been saying for years and thinking about the other wonderful women in my life as well. To the mother's that have become my mother's over the years and (you all know I call you all lovely lady), to my sweet friends that have become mothers to sweet nieces and nephews. You are the best , fantastic moms in life, period!Those ladies that I mention come before me, are the ones I look up to the most in this life. They are the superheros that would do anything for their children by any-means and help anyone else in their live as well and I have seen in action. They gave life to most beautiful people I know in this world, they are the ones who would listen to any problem anyone has, they are the ones who work a full shifts and have a clean house , prepare a whole meal and still have a spare moment to relax at the end of each day. They are my favorite superheros to learn from and every second I spend with them, I learn something that can't be found on google.



Taking in this moment to reflect on my own life and all the ladies that helped me grow, helped me water my own seeds as woman and I am watching my own garden grow around me, I think about the teachers in schools who taught me things beyond the textbooks that could be taught, my own mother that made me stronger when she wasn't around; I learned things about myself. And about every single woman in my family taught me something from Aunties,to the many cousins I have; giving me hours of advice I needed in my life . Every single woman, mother and young woman in my world , those are the women that make me want to be better a woman each day and be the type of mother I would want to be one day , if I am ever lucky to have a child of my own.

I also wanted to say I know some of you can't celebrate with Mom or with those other special women in your lives because they passed on. I know they are looking down on you and seen you grown into beautiful people from afar. They are smiling down and sending their love your way to, I can feel it in my heart. I didn't not want to not mention them because just because you can't hug them or see them smile right now, I can promise you they are smiling right now and they are hugging you with the wind.

This Mother's day might be different for each one us around the world right now. And there's no brunch out or a party to attend for the special occasion. Eventually things will go back to a new normal where we can celebrate everyday with each other again. But there's still facetime, skype and old fashioned calls as well to make that lovely lady happy. I will be sending a sassy card to my favorite ladies and something sweet.. shhhh! Send her favorite flowers to her door or with another unexpected gift, I bet it would make her whole day!

Happy Mother's day again, around the world !

Love you all, Lovely Ladies!

With all my love,

Misread

 

Finally May( May the force be with you )






It's Finally May , 2020! Spring is in the air, flowers of plenty and yes, some of us are still under a stay at home order. Bright Side of this we are still on a vacation of shorts and making progress in life with great weather ahead ! I believe good things will happen this month and I am smiling about it as I type; good things ahead for all of us. Since my last update of life last month,before losing mocha; there was a new addition to the family if you didn't know already! Another German Shepard came into my life and his name is Mason, he has a story as well. He of course came from the Westside German Shepherd rescue in Los Angeles. Now there's three big German Shepherds running around and they all start with the Letter M! It can be confusing sometimes who to call , by what name some days but I guess it makes things intersecting.

And if you are like me trying to find as much normalcy as possible is key to stay on top of things. But I can tell you that I am enjoying the family that is around as much as possible , like soaking up as time I can with them either that be via skype or the ones home. I know we are struggling with work being difficult currently but I like to think that this moment is a reset button on that section on all of lives. We all work again and don't have to worry about making ends meet. Just have faith and stay positive as you can during this time.

We also have Mother's day to look forward to coming, Celebrations might look a bit different this year! But I think this year we can all be a little more creative to share each mother in our lives that they are special even if things are different this year. And I already have been thinking about what I could do this year even at a distance.

Now what in store for misread currently, I don't have a full answer right now but Collaborations are coming up! And I am just being relaxed with my blog and adding new blog post for the future daily. A few written pieces that I always wanted to finish are coming up sooner than later. And I finally have a clear schedule to layout a new print shop and hopefully will be more user friendly. Behind the scenes of it all, I am writing again on my two unfinished novels and going for it. I truly sat down and thought, "What do I have to lose right now ". My answer right now, " Is absolutely nothing", besides getting it out there for your eyes Finally!

Let's all see together , what May brings and keep an open mind about it. Stay positive and don't forget to reach out to anyone and everyone.

Love , Misread

P.s : See you soon

 

Feeling lost without Mocha



It's been a few days since my Little mocha has been gone. I catch myself looking for her in the places where she used sleep in her days. That alone sounds weird in itself. I am writing this in my favorite chair that she took over because of the blanket. I have sat here and thought about her, her life and standout moments that I will always remember. I can say I don't I will ever own other kitty after her because she was special one and I can't see myself letting another kitty in my bed. Like what my best friend said the other day when she heard about Mocha, " Mastermind mocha ". And she definitely lived up to that name to her very last moments.



I have been sitting here with my phone in my hand the last two hours trying to figure out what to say. So I am going to say lots of things that might not exactly make sense altogether. I  made the decision unwilling to let Mocha go. She lived almost Sixteen years exactly,  born April 3rd, 2004 and her final day was April 15,2020. On her last day, she let me put her in her carrier with no problem for the first time in her life but we both cried all the way to town and I had my right hand petting her through the carrier as I drove the slowest I could. Let me quickly  say before I  forget I like to thank  Jonathan from Tehachapi valley vet hospital that help me ,help her after waiting in the full parking lot of pet owners. And I like to think it was her last and final sign to me because I  was thinking about a person with the same name that day before I made that decision sitting in that full parking lot. And he told me she was the sweetest kitty when he took her back and she's not one to like strangers at all which also shocked me to and didn't fight when she heard the razor which also shocked me . When it came to her final moment, I held her in my arms tight in my car and she was looking up at the sky , she was gone in thirty seconds. I knew I had the right call even if it killed me and doing it alone. And he took off her collar when I couldn't do it myself, holding her in my arms in their kitty blanket. I was a complete mess after that, I asked if he could cut a piece of her fur so I could take it home with me. When he took her away from me for the final time, I sat in my passenger seat crying my eyes out for I don't know how long. And when I could move, I stood up on the payment, leaned on to the car door until I could breathe and take a step through what seem a rainstorm of unless tears and I couldn't believe she was gone and she wasn't coming home with me either. And when I stop at a red light and no one was around, I looked into that passenger seat hoping she would just reappear and meow at me.

Coming home after everything else I had that day, I looked around my space and saw her everywhere and every moment we had together as I cleaned up my room.

Mocha was my longest relationship ever and it will be one I hold tight to by heart always. Over the last few days,I  have been looking for her in her favorite spots without even thinking or knowing I am doing it until a few moments later. I listen to my morning alarm and wait, wait for her to jump on my chest until I get out of bed but nothing happens. She would want me up so she could lay in my body heat before I made the bed after my cup of coffee. She lived well, she survived lots of things like being caught twice by two German shepherds,(King ) and (Gracie) side note the only reason they let her go because she peed on them in their mouth. She survived a week out in wilderness without getting attacked by anything when I first moved to the countryside . She found three rattlesnakes outside my bedroom window to warn me through out the summers she lived by the window seals . She's been my heated blanket before there were heated blanket made and then I had to convince her to let me have some of the heated blanket throughout the years.



Mocha was my favorite study partner when I went to school; she would seat on my back, my butt and head when I would lay on the floor for hours to distract me from my tasks.  She once brought a headless bird to me in the house and to this very day ,no sign of head in sight... Let all hope she left it outside. My mocha has been through everything with me since the age of ten, through heartbreaks, broken bones, surgeries and the occasional sneak out also the numerous colds. I also remember the time she took out the little christmas tree set we had with her whole body trying to get the dangling ornaments. What I miss the most is hearing her little paws running up and down the hallway tile in the midnight hour because she's fully wake from her full day of naps. I  miss seeing her little paw under the bathroom doors, telling me to let her in or she will open it and let me tell you she opened the door every single time regardless if I was in the bathtub or not. Today I  made my bed with new sheets and it took me just ten minutes to make it but I missed the moment where she would roll all over the bed with the new warm sheets and not let me make it until I caught her first probably in her mind it was my cardio for disturbing here from her nap.

I feel out of place without her and I will probably be for a very long time with her being gone. Reflecting over the last few days and reflecting all of our years together. I can say through all her masterminding moments that we both really understood each other fully and she was my other half but in kitty form. I miss those head nudges for cuddles and kisses the most all. My Favorite little Mocha in the world.

 

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