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August the closing of summer 2020

I started to write this months post at another doctor appointment in the waiting room for the hundredth time this year and honestly I lost count on the number of times I have been waiting rooms this year alone. But I didn't want to start like that for this month and to share that but hey it's life.

We are officially near the ending of the year and August is here, shortly the fall season will come and go before we know it, christmas will be. But I hope these next few months till the new year are full of blessings for all us. Even tho this the closing of our summer days of 2020 are ending. I hope they Slow down, full of memories and fun regardless if we have wear a mask wherever we go. Let's take these days to be the ones soaked up by happiness and supporting each other even if the act is simply asking, " How are you doing?". Do more facetimes, Do more voice texts and be there because the seasons are changing, restrictions change, life routines can change all over again.


Go watch the lingering sunsets each evening, grab your favorite drink and watch the beauty of God and the universe has created for us to enjoy. In times like these we should appreciate them more than we did previously. I find myself racing each evening to finish everything I have on my plate of lists to watch the color show even if that's a few seconds before it's dusk. I find myself back under the stars like I used to such a long time go right before bedtime. Better than any show I can find on any device right now. I can even tell you last night when the world around was asleep, light's off across the valley that I looked up to those same stars that lingering each night for about thirty minutes doing absolutely nothing besides being. I found myself at peace, reaching my hands up the stars like I did like a child once upon a time ago and attempt to catch one in my palm if I could. There were so many in the sky last night that it took my breath away and it felt like dream, no sounds of anything besides the light midnight breeze moving a chime. So if you haven't done that in a while I think you should just to unwind from the world right now, the best medicine I could find. And honestly I think the stars are the absolutely gorgeous thing about life and no matter where you are in the world, they are always there with you the darkness they are share their light when we can't see seem to share ours on some days.

With that all being said I have being feeling Creative like a burst of energy came into my soul and I think it's time to share a few written pieces that I have tucked the back of things left unfinished to share with the world. I feel alive again like the wind changing directions, seasons changing in a blink of an eye. I feel like me almost to a thousand percent. I find myself drifting the world of writing in my head, faster than any pen on paper or typing on any keyboard. If I am watering the herbs, taking care the zoo or doing work I find myself dabbing little sticky notes and hiding them away in a notebook. Just saying that made me a smile a little , typing all this and hoping this makes sense to at least someone out there.

I found myself grabbing for my camera again which I haven't done either in months, I am getting inspired more when I see something that caught my eye. To the point I have ran through my house to grab my camera before I missed the opportunity when I only have seconds left. Just imagine three german shepherds very concerned for me that they are on my heels because I am just flying through doors like nothing. I can promise you when I can run back outside with a camera or two that we all forget the breaks going down the deck steps. At least I can say I got my cardio in each time that happened. And I missed that part getting excited and laughing over a moment like that when I know it doesn't make sense unless you are there witness the same thing. When was the last time you went chasing something that made you inspired that you need to capture it ?

I guess my point of this snippet of a monthly post is that enjoy moments of life right now, stop and watch what's exactly in front of you. And what has inspired you recently that made you feel giggy , that made you smile so much that your face hurt? Put down your phone more often, turn off the tv, the computer and watch the beauty around us that we often miss when we are busy with life. Just being is more important, press pause go in solitude in nature. Before we know it , rain will come around, the colder temperatures will come upon us and the snow will be covering the world around us. And remember your safety is important, wear the mask when you should and check on your loved ones. Just don't forget to just be in this timeframe and what beauty lies around us.


In closing I just want to leave you with this: You are loved, you are worthy of everything and someone is always in your corner to catch you if you were fall. And Being is Okay to be right now, you don't have do anything else besides that .

Anyways,

Love Misread.💕

P.s I will try to be on time for the next monthly post and keep a lookout for anything new to pop up shortly.

 

Change in the air -July 2020

Here we are in July 2020 and we are on the July where we in the middle of summer Vibes!

Let me first say this month alone in the last ten days have been different for me ; Full of emotions, highs and lows. And I have been have reflections on my own beliefs, my thoughts and a reason for it all where we all in life. I have keeping myself away from my phone, the media outlets, talking less. I know those first few lines are hard to read and understand even for me. I spent the last ten days figuring out what to say, how to say it and when to post , when to share because the change in the air has me at a lost for words.I know has a writer is just write and it will make sense in the end. By that being said, I hope this makes as I continue to type words, sentences and maybe paragraphs even I don't know but I am sharing what's in my heart.



I am writing this six days after July fourth and the previous Paragraph I wrote last month and yet it still feel right to start this month's blog post like this.

I think this month the feeling of the world in a weird state, hit home for me at least and yet there was good things that happen during the last time I posted and some other sad things in between. I miss the hugs, the smiles and the many coffee dates I had in my calendar. I look back on this July fourth as a weird one without all the festivals through the weekend but more blessed that I had my Father around, my momma and my stepbrother in one place and we got the time to be together. Because previous fourths we would never together, cooking, laughing during those years. Some this year was quite special to me.

Also this month I lost another furry friend of mine, I used to babysit and take care of a sweet doggy next door to me. He was sixteen years old and I knew him for eleven years of his life! He was a sweet boy and few times he went on his walk bouts from his home, he would always come to my front door. His name was Scooter, I called him Scoot. He was my Favorite model, He knew how to work the runway in his own way.



A very special person to me and in my community,passed away suddenly. Her name was Jennifer, she was loved my many and she touched many. I only knew her for a short time but it felt like I knew her forever. I knew her through the Rotary club and she was friends with both of my neighbors as well.She was a strong woman and always had a giving heart. She had a smile that you knew it came from her heart because her eyes would light up as well.She little spot outdoor venue spot in the heart of town where people would get married, have birthdays at with the most beautiful Lavender garden. I was blessed for the amount of time I knew her and witnessing all her kindness to others. Our Community has been hit hard in recent months with losing people suddenly and unexpected. To suicides that should have never happened and families hurting. And losing a friend my age with a full life ahead of her being stabbed in her car and she took off to the hospital and while getting there someone ran a red light that killed her. Her name was Angelina she was beautiful and she was kind to me and everyone around her. She would be missed dearly by everyone who knew her.

Life is an unpredictable sometimes and sometimes it challenges us during the worst of times and yet during the best of times to. Looking at the whole of the world right now during through every angle. I think sometimes is life real right now or fantasy. I know one day, we will get back to normalcy, we will understand each other better and we will learn the lessons we need to know through this time period of history.

I have my own ups and downs in the last six months that I can't believe where I am right now with it all. I wasn't feeling myself since my birthday of this year, I was told my body is fighting something and yet there was no reasoning behind it all just a guessing game. Each day wasn't the greatest, there were lost of sleepless nights and tears. Breathing was hard sometimes, I had to stop working out , I lost ten pounds within weeks, I couldn't eat food that I would normally eat. I went to many doctors, did many tests and scans. And let me tell you I had so much gel on me that I think I could make another me with it all combined. Fyi when they say it will wash off easily don't take their word for it I had gel in my hair (three washes later , by the way). I few reactions to medications that made me feel even worse than I was feeling already. I had a few panic attacks during a few scans that I had to be confined like an the MRI but that was actually the easier one and the during the EEG; which was the worst for me.

Conclusion to this all, I have lumps in my breasts that are hormonal related that might not ever go away and yet they are painful. They found tiny cysts in my throat and one my thyroid gland but nothing is life threatening. The popping in my ears and my sinus acting up because I have an allergy syndrome thing that might or might not with me forever, I have to wait it out. My first time in my life experiencing allergies. My organs look good, my heart is in good shape. They found a tiny tiny little cyst on my pineal gland in my head which is very common in woman and very very very tiny like lots of....

I can say from six months go to till today , I actually feel better slowly, being more active again. In all of all I am happy about it and I am getting close to getting closer to feeling normal. To all my friends thinking I was being a more of a hermit than normal that's why before the world was shut down. And I am blessed to have the family I got that made me keep pushing through it and help me to the many lovely doctors appointments even if they had it seat in the parking lot of hours. I love you.

There were some good things that happened, I had the chance to collaborate with a company the last few months. The company name is Neveo, If you follow me on instagram; you will see the collaborations through my story.I love this company and the app was so easy to use. I love there concept of helping generations of families connect without social media. Just by uploading pictures in the app each month and simply adding a caption. And they take care of the layout and send it the person that journal is for. I am smiling about talking to them because right now in life connection is important. If you would like to try them out for a few months , I highly recommend you do! I got a code for you "FAMILY" for three months for half off! Think about it something tangible to give to someone you love.

I will working on some edits that I have been meaning to finish and open the store on here that I put on hold since everything that happened. And I have writing a different style of writing than I used to , something fresh and I have been releasing a few pieces on another platform to see if anyone loves it anonymously before I share it here. I have been thinking about a few pieces that I have been circling around in my head the last few weeks. You never know a new written piece might just pop up here, subscribe if you haven't yet to get the lastest first. I feel more ready than ever to be the creative as I was months ago. So prepared once everything is ready, all my social feeds will be full.

I want to leave you on this note. Take a pause on life, ignore what chaos is around you right now. Close your eyes, breath in for a moment and take a breath out. Look at what's in front of you and where you want to. Who you want to me and if you need to make a change in your life. Make something right about your past, do it. You are loved, you wanted , you have gift even if you haven't discovered it yet. Make the most of the next months leading to 2021, spend the time with love ones, spend time working on you. And most of all things will work out , things will be normal; I am sure of it. Believe in it all and see what happens next.

That's my catch up.

With love always,

Misread

 

A different kind of fourth of July

Happy fourth of July, Happy birthday America 🎉🎉!




This year across the country things are different then normally they would look on this day.

Normally on this day, my morning would start at 530 am and head down the launch field of the hot air balloons until roughly 10 am. I would forget my coffee in the car or on the roof of the car! And yes, folks I have done that at least twice!

In my head right now I am replying last years events and it brings a smile to my face as the berry pie is filling the house with it's aroma.

I remember going up in a hot air balloon for the first time in my life! And it felt like magic in the air I never felt comfortable in my soul floating in the clouds and sometimes I wish I could go up again over and over again because I don't think I would get tired of hearing the sound of the burner and looking down to earth and the wind in my hair. I felt like I was unstoppable from anything in that moment. I can never stay thank you enough to the crews, the pilot because honestly I still don't have words from that day besides I have that flying bug forever!

Another my favorite memory from the years is watching families, children absolutely having fun without worrying in mind! American flags on every house, every building, flags around the lakes. Smiling faces, laughter filling the sound of the world, less cars in the street. The smell of BBQ floating in the air. I miss seeing the parks filled with booths of everything you can find, if it's food or art galore.

I miss the seeing rodeo grounds filled with bulls and horses. Feeling the anticipation in the air of what each cowboy and cowgirl feeling before they burst of the box.I miss seeing the fireworks lighting up the night sparking up the stars. Seeing the little ones on their dad's shoulders pointing up the night sky saying how pretty they are. And the twinkling wonder left in the eyes as the night sky ends. I remember that feeling everytime I see their faces light up.

Moments like that are gold memories for me and I am sure you are thinking about your favorite ones like I am right now.



Looking outside the kitchen window, I see my momma planting in the garden,my father sleeping in the chair. My brother playing with the dogs. And I wouldn't trade this moment,this memory for anything. In the first time in years we are all in the same place on the July fourth and no is working,on their phones etc. Music playing in the garden as well. I am sure will be BBQ to had in a few hours, a fire and smores as we watch the sunset go down. Simply as it on this day ,I am grateful that my family is together, healthy as we are. And we are blessed to be together on this day even though this not usual day each day, it's perfect as it is.

And next year across America we will celebrate more than ever to make up for this year. I can't wait to see it , the fireworks in the sky, everyone happy and of course the crazy food!

I hope you are enjoying this day to the fullest and keep your traditions going as much as you can on this day.

With love always,

Misread

P.s : See you soon !




 

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