When one loses another

I tend to find it harder than most to lose people in my life, this year alone, its too many to count. That the tears just stop coming I don't think I can handle one more tear for the rest of the year. From the young to old it's still the most heartbreaking thing to understand and go through. Losing a best friend younger than me had so much ahead of him and losing another father figure in life that was a stubborn warrior that served his country well .Then the unexpected happens when you least expected to happen as the saying goes . I have had dreams about those individuals I hold dear to my heart, before knowing they have passed on. I like to think it's their secret message to me and each one has an animal in it. When I see these animals cross my pass in days I need them the most. I think of them with a smile and tell them a secret or two. Looking into these creatures eyes, they let me finish talking to them and stay for a moment or two longer looking back at me then moving on, I feel lighter every-time.

The person that I lost a few days ago was and is the type of man that would always fight with everything he got .And he gave his opinions always, share his amazing stories from his very adventurous life as an amazing man and one strong Marine. He was Aviator during the Vietnam and was shot down then held as a prisoner of war over a month before escaping. He was the man to go to for any question you need an answer for because he probably had a similar situation and share what he learned. And the most caring man , that would always lead a helping hand or the shirt off of his back. In day's later I am still in shock and I can't find the exact words to describe the man who leaves quite a legacy and too many people behind wishing he was still around .