- Cassie. Sarkisian

- Feb 9, 2023
- 6 min read
Hi there , what can I say.. It's been awhile. You can call me missing in action Misread for now at least.
I got some explaining to do even though I don't have to explain anything at all. I was planning to come back after month of hiatus which then turn into two months hiatus and I have the blog posts drafts to explain everything to all of you . Where I was, and to some I was where you left me last and to others I am in a different place. To be honest I could just skip over all that and say it A new Year and It's a new me and go past all of that . But I am just not built like that . And definitely it's a new year, a new beginning ; I am different. And genuinely the most happy I have been in a long time.
So let me attached the past to understand misread.
P.s I will added other posts right after this, just needs to be said first.

Here's what I know in-between from my last post in July and till now, October/November 2022; there were things happening behind the scenes to which point I had to stop everything I was doing and considering what I pursuing with Misread. And let me tell you directly I was at the point in my head and heart to end misread completely because what was happening wasn't worth putting my heart in something I loved through it's own pain. I wasn't going to tell a soul about it, I was just going hit the delete button. By that being said I sat with that idea for a few months, toying with it. If any of my close readers would know that I think through every decision fully before I make move. I went through the stages of feelings of letting it go, like what humans do with relationships I cried, I got angry and drank.. Lots lots of dam coffee in-between and maybe a few pumpkin spices too. No alcohol was involved in the process but it felt like I should be. It felt like I was on empty road going no where to a unknown battle for a while, this wasn't something I could just share what's I feeling that would make sense.
I stopped writing the content I want, in the style I loved because it was getting the wrong attention. I am one of those souls who gives their all in their craft or passion. I wear my soul in my words, in my photos just as one sees someone smiling with their eyes. I can handle critics like everyone else but when things repeat over and someone creating over fifteen accounts to cause havoc. And continues to still try's because they have too much time on their time. Everyone has their breaking point. I could scream, I could shout and let it all out kind moment but I chose to just stop. I stop talking about things, about the things that excited me, where I have been etc. But also on the flip side of things since I wrote my Nene's piece, I had lots of healing to do through that and after that. I had to turn off my feelings to share my heart in any capacity because it was flood gate of feelings and that might be a writers dream but I didn't want anyone in that space for a long time. Don't get me wrong I love the connection of writing about a feeling or the thoughts that someone can relate to. I just didn't want my readers to feel what I was feeling fully while I was healing about loss and about my life. Also I wasn't ready to feel what my readers were feeling in return, ( a little insight, I feel what you feel when tell me how you relate to each piece ). To put it simply that I feel a lot more than I lead on in my personal life and in my work. And I have turned on my writing feels back on. And I am ready. My only aim in the work that I do on the platforms I am on is make people feel see, heard and respected.
By that all that I said thus far, I had to the take the time to not just heal about life and do the self work to heal in my own way. To not only see where I was and what I really what out of life and what I want life to be all while to understand the path my own feet where on. There was a little discussions between friends here and there that figured some things out. And those friends suggested the same things I was doing but also had friends that told me not to walk from the world I created. Here's a little funny thing , I will share there were a few ghosts that appeared in back in life briefly at the same time of things happening that kind of; said the very same things, that my friends said without knowing the impact. So the universe give me the message loud and clear on that subject of person misread.
Now also at the same time I summited some photos in another show during August. What should of been a happy time for me was short lived. But looking back the time, with the same Joy that I had then. It was successful experience and I was even in the paper a few times and on cover of an article. I submitted 5 photo in this round and I won first place in people and a honorable mention in travel. The first place photo was taken of my father at one of his favorite places in the High Sierras specifically at Convict Lake and possibly one of my favorite photos I have ever taken, it was called "Fisherman's Heaven". And the honorable mention was a picture of the Golden Gate bridge with the water splashing, which I titled: "Water under the Bridge" a from few years back. Everyone that submitted photos were all special in their own way. My only aim for this show was to beat my own work and possibly get best of show. And In my opinion I was hoping for Fisherman's Heaven to win which in the end it did and that made me happy , I was living on a high for that time. Again I felt I couldn't share that little win but people around found out and sent me good wishes. Which I fully appreciated for them to take their time to share that. And conveniently that how I found out I was in the articles through those friends. And course that made my soul happy that the people who care for me, are looking out for me even I am silent. Which just by writing that last sentence reminds me of my friend Johrei and the very thing he said to me in our last conversations ages ago and God knows I miss him, what a light he was in everyone's life.
I know the questions coming to your mind that I left unanswered for a while.


Like where have I been ? I been living life, coffee dates with friends, laying on a beach or two and have eaten plenty of yummy food that I might share. I also have been working on business things that needed my attention for a while .
And the next question is I am sure is "where new work/pieces coming our way ?." My short answer is Coming soon ! And my return question back , does this post count as work ? Just teasing, yes there will new story pieces but in all good timing of them. There has been a few that keep playing back of my mind and few unfinished ones that deserve to be finished and shared with you all. Also as well with the book reviews that I will adding to that section of blog that I owe you as well. I have a few good books to recommend that I have reading in my spare time. Sidenote Does anyone else have the same problem as I do when they are in any book section in any store? Do you come out of the store with more than book like me ? It happens every time in any where there's books involved.
In closing this sort of really coming back to misread and to me. I just wanted to explain where I was and where I am . And healing, living life is an important matter in any stage to evaluate one's self before anything else. I am a lot stronger than I give myself credit for. And I am grateful for who I am and I know where I am going, there's nothing that can stop me either.
That's all I have to say for this little intro back and I will in the next one !
Love,
Misread.









