New Year 2021

Coming Back to Life

Happy new year, everyone! I hope your last night of 2020 to this morning was peaceful and relaxing. I know the end of the year is usually the loudest and buzziest night with parties around the world and the last night of 2020 wasn't the same as the others but this night was more of a break mentally for all of us and looking forward to 2021 with peace in mind and the possibility of a somewhat do over from the year prior.

Anyway we are in 2021 now, January first, the blank page of our 2021 novel. I hope it's all we wished for and then some. My wish for you all is to fall in love with life all over again minus how the world is currently.

Mini disclaimer: I am currently editing this and finish writing this up on Jan 16th, 2021 , so please excuse the lateness of this ( Is lateness a real word ?) P.s.... It is a real word, I looked it up!

The last few days I have been thinking about who I was on this exact day, last year . That day I couldn't have imagined the year to be what it was, looking back on those days three hundred and sixty-five days ago.

I was in love completely and in love with life it's self, the happiest I have been in a long time. But as life would have it unexpected things turn out instead that year. Feeling horrible most days , many nights full of tears than most people know and that's the honest truth. Days with doctor appointments and the most unexpected moments in history the world shut down and what seems to an never ending pandemic and we still don't know if the pandemic would end yet. Side note , I quit watching news lately , I only watch the good things that no one covers , we need more of the good in this world to be shared. I hope in 2021 that the particular vaccine will help more and we don't see a different type of the virus comes around. Well turns out I was wrong about different types of the current virus coming out... Losing my Nene this year was the most unexpected reality in my family, in my world . I wish we would go back in time and not lose a single person like her in the world , the way we all did. No one deserved to be sick like this and leave this world without their love ones next to them , it's just how I feel about it. Losing her was and is the void of something missing in my heart, in this world and I am sure most people can relate to that. I can easy say that 2020 changed everything from our ways of mundane life, our introspective about things and made our feels of love change as well. That's just my own personal opinion looking back on things in my own life.

Another thing I wanted to express to you all since October 2020 that I haven't expressed publicly I have been toying with the idea , going back and forth about erasing A Person misread completely. Some thought I was kidding, some said I should wait until I fully grieve and some people that never wanted me to even start this journey years ago ,have said ," Why would you even do that? ". And honestly right now , just typing this in here makes my eyes glossy and I guess I hoping someone would understand why I am adding this in. I haven't written any pieces in months, I haven't made any improvements on my blog platform nor have I really picked my camera with the same love for it as I once did. When did start to share something , to write I felt like why I am even doing this? And I get interrupted completely where I just don't even try anymore because No one will understand how I feel about it. I have talked to my friends, work friends, and family members about this in great lengths through texts, phone calls. It's always been more than numbers to me , more than likes, more than comments as well. My work has always been about connection, letting people in, sharing stories that people can relate to when they can't share their own story out loud but using my words to be their voice. An escape from everything in the world from five minutes to fifteen minutes as always been my goal. ( And fyi you would notice a few improvements did happen lately, I have been working on a new layout and more changes coming still )

To be Honest the passion completely left when my heart left is the only way I can explain it in a few words. My purpose that I felt was always my path in life was closed off to me, I could try to write but it was either a sad concept that had no happy ending in site, ( Which if you know my style of writing that's a rare from me to end on a sad note) or I was left staring a blank page physically on a paper which to those who are writers know what I am talking about emotionally. I couldn't even come up with a title even. And before I go any further , Thank you to everyone reading the post about me Nene, to those who shared it. And reaching so many hearts around this world and internationally as well . After all the years on this blog page , that piece has been my most view and the piece that couldn't rewrite that about her if I could minus all the errors in that piece. She always had the touch of touching hearts so every pair of eyes ,reading that one piece , made me full of love when I was hurting. Thank You! Originally I thought I could leave this all behind because of that piece because you all showed up for her and that was enough for me to walk away.

In conclusion instead of erasing A person Misread completely which that's what I was going to do New years day with this Post in fact in the draft before this. On my birthday and officially January 16th,2021; I decided to keep going, something in my heart is telling me , "There's more to do , to share . This journey isn't over, yet ". So I will keep A person misread for bit longer before I let this all go. Friends, family , you can all breathe and thank you for keeping my secret to yourself and the calls and texts convincing me to not stop and helping me open back my own heart again. I need those words , those reminders and the love as well.

Moving on to my usual pick of theme wish for this year, let's all not get to sappy into this beginning year of our book. Someone aske me what's my theme, resolution/ wish, word for 2021 this morning, the day of New Years Day . And honestly I usually have one a month before Christmas even happens. And a reason why this new year post is a bit late because I am still thinking about I want to put out in the world about it.

As I am staring at this for this Year's New year wish is for the world to heal, to have some what normalcy around the world with peace in mind. And Good things to happen to everyone, the unexpected miracles to happen and yes I still believe through all we have been through that miracles will happen. Angels are always watching over us and around us , so miracles do exists.

For my Resolution this year is to be have the success that I always wanted for my career that I started a long time ago, for my heath to be where it was and improve it even more, to help lift others in their success as well. I think we all deserve success right now, in every avenue, every aspect in our lives. To be remined that we deserve success even if it's not the biggest step in our lives but the small steps lead up to the biggest wins. I think we lost that last year and I hope by keeping that my resolution through out this year, it helps motivation you all as well. And a small secret of mine I always had a fear of success and I couldn't tell you why but that is all about to change.

My theme of 2021 is Heal ,being myself without holding myself back like I used to in all aspects in my life. To open my heart , let those in that need to be let in. To be the woman I was raised to be, the woman who fights, whom loves even harder. To the woman who smiles , who is sassy most days and laughs on the kitchen floor then hide herself from the world.

And lastly my word for this year is Freedom. Now if you are thinking why Freedom out of all things. Because when you close your heart, your mind and your soul off like I did, you forget what freedom feels like to just be yourself again. And if you been there before , you understand and if you are there now, there's love, light and blessings coming your way when you open back up. I feel it's a good word to pick for this timeframe because it feels like we are still trapped somewhat emotionally ,physically from the past year to right now in this present moment. We forgot how it feels to be free and peaceful in our hearts, minds and to go where we want, be with loves ones without a concern in mind. We all need to comeback to life after everything , we are here together. I hope you find your own freedom , whatever that means for you.

In closing I hope this post was worth the wait and it makes sense in the end , I spent hours to just make these eight minutes make sense. At least I didn't let this blogpost stay unfinished to long .. Just sixteen days past my deadline , hey it's a start to coming back to who I am. I hope your start to your new year is a beautiful one , you are happy , laughing and making things happen. And doing what you love at the end of each day, its not just work but your love for that work , that makes you challenged ,satisfied in your soul.

Let's go into this year heads up , goals in mind and make the plans we wanted to last year originally it will that much sweeter , to have coffee meetings in a coffee house, birthdays with family and friends without being six feet apart , without masks. Being able to travel without worrying about everything underneath the sun. Having the hugs we missed and kisses from love ones across lands, seas. Don't forget if you love someone right now and you haven't told them how you feel, tell them;

If you reached the ending of this post , Thank you for being here and I will be adding my birthday post like I do every year and I will add the link down below when I am done.

Love always,

Misread

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October 2020 The beauty of fall

We are officially in the middle of fall and two more months away from 2021 if you can believe that one already !

Where do I even begin is the question I ask myself before I start these monthly posts. I am sitting here at my desk with Music Travel Love Playing in the background while snacking on trail mix , daydreaming of hiking mountains to be honest.And if you never heard of that band before, look it up on youtube, I highly recommend them and I just discovered them. Well I guess I start my sharing I have my ups and down days about whatever the source of my pains and other things but I still have faith things will work out eventually. I just came back from another xray and this time it was sinius. Let me tell you , I never had to stretch my neck in different angles for a few shots. And the lovely tech I had was very much a photographer in his own way , very gentle moving me in the positions and also a romantic experience minuis no meal had. You had to be there to understand how funny that was when I said to the tech and yes I did say, "This almost a romantic date with the meal involved", made us both laugh in the most awkward situation.

Mr. Maverick has gotten bit better since that last time I mentioned him and he eating again but being semi difficult about being picky about what he wants to eat some days. But I will take that improvement and put his weight back on him is a win -win my opinion even if I have stand next to him for thirty minutes to get to finish is meals each time. And to sad to mention that Max has been having seizures lately and there's no cause or a reason why he has been having them besides it's become less frequently and I only hope they would only stop for him. He has been through so much in his life but he's one stubborn just like his brothers in that way. And Mr. Mason is just a puppy handful that just wants attention and someway is just my bodyguard even if I am just in the bathroom! To add on that note, I discovered Mason doesn't like scarecrows while I was putting them out as decorations..He rather eat them and bark at them when the wind moves them outside, I am still laughing at the fact he grabbed one right out my hand a few weeks ago.

I don't know about you all out there, this my favorite time of the season for many reasons besides the one pumpkin spice latte I get every year. It's the smell of the countryside air in the mornings, the changing of the leaves turning gorgeous autumn colors and being allowed to wear cardigans , boots everyday. Usually during this month you could find me in the Eastern Sierra's chasing autumn colors, waterfalls and getting fresh baked goods. And every year that I make a trip out there, each time it still surprises me what I would find among the crisp leaves. To note sometimes I forget to either bring a jacket or gloves on most trips, I get too excited about packing each time. This year that might not happen but don't worry I still have tons of unedited albums from last few years that I started but never finished. So in turn this year you will find me editing those might share a gallery or two from those files. I also enjoy this season because it seems that the world around feels calmer, quieter than previous months like being at peace with the energy around, the wind moves like music in the air. I challenge you everyday to just sit outside with a cup of something warm either in the morning or at dusk and listen to the world. Take it in the world , forget everything else and listen to what's around you, I promise you will feel calmer than anything else for a few moments. Please let me know about your thoughts about that experience. And I want to know what are your favorite things about the autumn season to you.

To what you will find on here this month besides a monthly update post. You will find a new book review for one. And yes, before you shout to the screen ," About time " I have been a bit busy and side track to finished one but good news I already started another! And this month's book review will be posted October 16th, so if you haven't subscribed yet, you should to be notified before it gets posted on my other Socials. And a little insider information, I enjoyed this month's book more than I thought I would, it's definitely a must read! As far has posting a brand new story on here goes.. let me share that my current notebook that was full of stories , has been missing in Action! I think one of the bodyguards either sneaky hide it away or it got accidently thrown away when I was decluttering my office on evening. But before I get another messaging saying, "you haven't posted a story in months" and I know what's why mainly you all come here for. I promise I am working on few just need a dog free moment to finish them. I will share there is one particular piece that has been on my heart and mind for a while now. And if you know me as a writer if I am thinking about a certain concept or idea to the point where you can find sticky notes all over desk and computer that there will be a piece coming sooner than later. Yes, there is sticky notes all over the place currently , so it only a matter of time the story will be written, edited and posted.

I will leave you with this, the next few days, weeks things will be changing , more breaking news will happen worldwide. And then it will be November before we know it to. But I will say try to keep things normal as possible wherever you are in this beautiful. Plan moments to just be you, be free enjoy this time as preciously as possible , no matter what time is precious and time only moves forward not backwards unfortunately unless you have a time machine then you and I need to chat, asap. Remember to take time for yourself, take that little challenge if you want and let me know how it goes. And stay safe, love more and spread kindness when you can because when we share gratitude in this world , gratitude will come back to us in unexpected ways.

That's my catch up of the month , hope you are all doing well.

Love always,

Misread 💕