2025 year of Me

Hi world , I must of written this maybe a thousand times in my head over that last three weeks. Where the words land by the end who knows but they will be honest. Saying goodbye to the year that I had was easiest thing to do, for 2024 going through it was a story in its self. And I could write that story but I'm not going to. I can say 2024,I have cried nearly once a week for the whole year that was an experience of 52 weeks. I can also say this year broke me many times in many places but also made me the strongest version by the end of it at the same time. Because I can break a million times over but I can also heal million times over. I noticed by the end of this year a couple of people asked me the same question, " How does one get through the broken ?" and they would ask me without knowing what I was going through that moment. My answer was and still is," Don't be afraid of the breaking whenever you can. Allow yourself to break over and over till your soul ready to heal". There's beauty in breaking and the beauty of healing at the same time. x

At the same time I'm kind of saying a little Hello to 2025 even through I don't know what's in store for this year either. Good or bad it's a new year, new set of everything including life.

Now I got that little part out the way there has been the happiest moments of my year that no one knows about either. The little moments I captured all by myself, no witness, no posting it anywhere. They were just for me. The girl singing on the top of lungs with only audience was the wind and possible any on lookers when I realized I'm at a stop of red lights then I suddenly act like nothing happened . The girl just choose to date her self for the year even on the days she didn't want to, she treated herself for five minutes or a hour .The girl who tries to be herself even if she shouldn't. The girl who would get dressed up and go no where to be and yet perfectly content in company of a Penna vodka for one and three wild Shepard's running in all directions. You probably would notice I been saying girl not woman. (Insert the Britney Spears's song in here ).. If you get the reference you get the reference. Look up the crossroads movie that's the version playing in my head. Because sometimes healing a girls heart makes a strong woman at the end of the day even of it takes time even if it takes longer than one wishes. I like to think I'm a stronger woman through all the things that's not mentioned and things that are small to others but are massive to me. I always been the type the smallest things matter as much as the biggest things in life.

I been thinking about my word for year and I landed on it's a bit odd word of choice. I thought about it for a while, the word is Selfish. Now, now don't take it as a negative choice of word even if by definition it is. I think of it as being selfish with life a little but in good way. Selfish to enjoy life. Selfish in being myself even if way I talk is a long winded story. My closest friends can contest to my long winded story's or statements , I love words. Selfish in every single away that's is good, to be free being selfish. I think that is as honest I can get about it. Or the word could always backfired in the end but this life. What if this where all leads and goes. I think that statement is a perfect beginning and ending when one doesn't know the answer to something beautiful to the question mark about life. Right?

The funny part is I'm kind of looking forward to being that way even if it's once in a lifetime to be, if its for three months,; six months or the whole 365 days or just a few moments even. Or who knows becoming the word will change the whole direction for my life, my world. I may be a little to excited about this word . I think it will be a fitting word to describe the year and one never knows what could happen the year. I think we can all agree with that statement by each New Years Eve. The unexpected I have learned can always lead to good things even through chaos, through sadness; the unexpected can lead to laughter and one wild story in the end it's how you look at. When was the last time you decided to be selfish for a minute or done the unexpected just for the thrill and nothing else. And on one knew about it besides your own little secret with universe.

Now in retro perspective I wrote the beginning of this post on new year eve with a glass of baileys to close out year watching the ball drop and obviously one I didn't post it or even finish it even through in my pretty mind I thought I did. I did enjoy that glass in bed and fell asleep with phone in hand with the open draft, you see as a published post before you.

I will share what my first day into 2025 was unexpected shocker of events on day one! I'm still laughing about it and to be completely honest sometimes you got say out loud, "I guess this how it was suppose to anyway". In the next post maybe that's where I begin.

I wrote this on the last night of 2024 to the fresh morning of 2025 and clearly I have this thing where in my first post of the year now comes out in spring each year. I promise that is never my intention to always post it that late ( these last few years) but hey at least its written and posted, it exists . I guess life always come first in a way and also I tend to sit with things no matter what it is but especially when it comes to this. This little thing is always me for me. One single place in the universe where it feels right and that's all I will say.

And Happy new year to you all!

Just from little old me.

P.s I been writing other posts, more is coming very soon.

Hi world

I assume the first thing would be where in the World have I been ? See what I did there... Hehe I made a tiny pun. Let me have it.

That at one point was very successful and people around the world read my work, saw my photography. I would also say there has been life changes, heartbreaks and lessons that happens that changes a person in the end. And that person could be in the same office with the same keyboard physically but in the inside of their soul be completely different. That's who I am now. I'm different and yet a little bit of same of the old me. The only way I could describe it. I have been genuinely happy at peace and happy where I'm at right now. It was an easy road, lots ups and downs, lots tear's that the world would never see but the walls would hear. I learned people come and go ,they sometimes stay for while, but each one will carry a piece of you and you will carry a piece of them. You will grief that loss in your own way, you think of them, no one will know that you are besides you. A lot can change in days, months and in a year. I learned into just lean into it is a better way of handling any situation. I can say I'm genuinely happy and at peace with everything is because letting go of everything, if something going to happen, it's going to happen either way. I feel much better, should have just done that long ago in life. No matter what it's called life but also creating history is seconds. Both in the present, past and the future. I had a few friends that know my life say recently ," You are too calm and relaxed. How are you doing this ? " . My response " Its because I choose happiness, now . And let everything go ,really. I can think about the loss of people as in it was chapter. A chapter that I would love to continue but I know it is meant to stay it can but if doesn't. I can see what happened any time I want ; the bad , the good . But don't stay there for too long. Where it went wrong or when it was happy . Its a choice to be happy and be relaxed" .Forgive quickly ,have that cry, have that scream. It's about releasing yourself and choosing to be happy regardless of the crumbling around. So that's where I'm at. Where are you? Think about it for a minute.

Now by that being said , I have tried returning many of times , it just seemed there was always something that would fall into my hands to take care of first . Time and time again eventually I just gave in to it. Because that's what life had in store for me at the time. And of course things fell through the cracks, that I didn't even see. Apparently I'm just the soul that loves stepping up to any plate and take care of things until I don't need to. To know everything around my orbit is functioning as it should is when I know I can touch my world again. It's habit of mine, I discovered. Maybe it's a habit I need to break ,here and there. We might have our own worlds has in families, friends, work but indivually we have own world inside us. And that's important to take care of us too. Because we live that every second that we breathe. I hope that make sense; it made sense to me. And per my author name, I'm misread for a reason if it doesn't make sense... That's okay.

I wonder if this world would be ever a place for me to step back into. Or it would even be thing that I always wanted it to be to begin with. Timing is everything, they say. When I close my eyes genuinely just envisioned what it always suppose to be all along, it makes me feel happy from my head to my toes. And it's a good thing it still makes me feel that. Makes me want that to be true reality, more .There was suppose to be print shop and other things, even through I have the other mini one which you could find on Zazzle. I think it could be better and it will be better. Possibly AKW will be in hands of many, who knows! I'm more open to success then I think I even know yet.

So Hi !

And yes, I'm babbling along and I will continue on. I write how I talk , I want to express myself like you are my best friend regardless if there's a screen between us. Just imagine we are out at some busy loud café but it's cozy for lunch and brew.

Can't believe we are in 2024 already and three months in ,I still don't know how time flies so fast sometimes. So much changed in these days already in the new year. I hope these first three months into 2024 has treat you all with kindness, love and wonder. And if not then you are right around the corner of being good for you. I always kick of the new year with new word that I think would set the tone for what's ahead at least for me. It's what I do. I think it's better than a resolution that sometimes we forget to keep. I know we can't always predict what the next second would be ,but we still try as humans. I might only be three months late but it's better to be late sometimes than never showing up at all. Let me be honest I didn't exactly have a word in the beginning of the year, I was busy on healing myself from my own conflicted injury. By walking and eating it mud not my best moment but Hey; life happens. Don't ask ,how ! You don't want to hear how much my ego was bruised. Back to my word of the year, I thought it would be Happiness at first honestly. And I was going to stick with that word because it made sense. Then it came to me just out of nowhere what the word should be , My word is ME. And I think those two letters make a powerful word. Let me tell you why that little word means putting myself first this year is important. Me being Happy is important to my soul . Me having success this year is important to my inspiration . Me being in love is important to my heart. That includes more self love as well. Me being more relaxed is important to my mind. And lastly Me having more fun that I have before is important because I deserve it. Now I don't know where Me is heading into the rest of the year, but I know where ever I land, it will be good, I'm sure and I deserve it. Right where I belong .And of course life with throw it's curves along the way. I'm sure we could all attest to that!

I did a little poll on my Instagram how long my first blog post back should be, you guys said ten minutes along. Here I thought you guys would want a short blog post that would get straight to the point and maybe long story next instead! But I was proven wrong very very quickly in that little poll. So I guess I can share that I'm writing something very powerful. At least to me. I think it was something I was suppose to write and share. It had many lives ,different versions exist but never saw light. It had different titles as well. I also will say that it's about love of course. What else would I write about ,hehe. But a different kind of love this is about. I think it will make people relate to different moments of the story. It may even make one cry and I apologize if it makes you cry in advance. I hope it was a good cry. It's very deep and personal to me. When I say deep ,I mean depth. It's at the space of heart where I don't share that space for anyone besides my soul. It not the type of conversation I would have over coffee. That space is where I wonder when I write but I hold back what's mine in each story. Think of this next piece has Taylor's Swifts All To Well song but the 10 minute version. If you ever listened to song in depth, you'll get my point. All I have ever given are the short versions of that space in everything I written but I think it's time at least in this era of my life it gets shown even if that's just once. It all depends if you all like it or not ! If not , oh ooops we shall cross that bridge when we get there. And if you are thinking, you are all getting a title out of me now. You would be right! The title is "Knowing Me, knowing You. " That's it! You aren't getting anything else out of me. Even that was too much but I think it was well deserved for waiting a long dam time for a good story! Well hopefully it would hit your expectations.

In closing I'm Back and I hope it's for good because this will always fuel my soul. It brings me happiness in my own little corner of the world on a little island even if I'm the only soul on the island. I know readers will return someday hopefully some day soon. They are just hidden away from this world at the moment. And that's definitely okay. I know nature lovers will come by see my photos. Once they leave the many beautiful hiking trails, fields because if you didn't notice we are spring! And the rumors are this year would be biggest super bloom yet ! We shall see how much of the bloom we get to see. Even though, I'm physically sitting in a snow storm with many layers of 32 degree attire and sleepy pups at my feet. And Trust me I'm not moving a muscle while typing away. Being in nature is better than any city unless there's important food craving then I understand the foodie and nature argument. You might hear more about this foodie opinions in future. There has been another thing that I been thinking about dabbling it. But I will leave you with this, be prepared to feel, to be on journey that will definitely be different. Because I feel everything will be different. But also still being misread regardless of anything else. So lets all enjoy the grammar errors and run off sentences all together! Because I can't help that anyway, it's in my nature any way!

See you soon ,I hope!

Bye for now.

With love,

Me

P.s If you think I have an release date in mind for "Knowing me , Knowing you". I don't. But I way sooner than you think!

Are we in March 2023?

I can say this first day of March 2023 definitely feels like the middle December instead of closer to the spring season. Currently I am in the office hiding away all buddle up in 32 degrees attire from head to toe almost. I have the third blizzard making a mess of outside but I got a hot cup of coffee to my right which was brewed perfectly in my opinion. While I am slipping the hot cup slowly just to enjoy it, I have two out of three big shepherds laying on fluffy beds next to the office, guarding me as usual and yet they are completely lights out instead! What am I going to do with these to two? And Max went into another room to hide away with his toys. Then again if I was them, I would be curl up too sleeping the day away. They are quiet lucky pups in my opinion but don't tell them that.

I thought I would start the introduction to this blog post today on this winterly cozy day before I got distracted working on other blogs post even though you will see the other blogs post before this. Hello All !

It's been exactly nine days after I started this blog post, Let me tell you this time they weren't kidding when the blizzard arrived. There was so much snow that I have a shovel snow for a least three days in row just to make a little dent in making path ways for the dogs. The snow level was almost to my knees at some points and other areas it was practically at my hips. I still had snow until this morning when rain storm decided to melt the rest of the snow. I know mason had lots of zoomies for days after the blizzard, he easily got his cardio in each day. Maverick enjoy it when he could lay in the sun within the snow patches. Max just want to eat as much snow has possible before it goes away. They each have their own personalities when it comes to snow. I did get some fun content during the storm and the aftermath of it all. I haven't gotten around to post it all anywhere yet but of course I will when I have a moment. There's a few quite awesome time lapses I took during the snow, hail and everything else. I can confirm the pack I have knock down a tripod and sent my phone flying when they can, but mainly maverick with his tail . But don't worry the phone was not harmed in the process just sent flying repeatly throughout the day.

On another note I did mention in the nourishment post, I did enter in the winter photo contest locally again in the beginning of the year. And I won't keep you in suspense anymore than I have to. Well the turn out was good, there was quite different artists that took part in the contest. Like I have said previously my only aim is to beat my own work each show. And think the outcome was not too shabby this round. I didn't get best in show but Maybe next time, I will snag that one! My outcome was four out five entered which is pretty good in my opinion. The categories I entered in were People, Black and white, Transportation, animals of course. Each show I start out with rough fifty pictures that I think they are the best then from that fifty, I narrow it down to fifteen to print. Then I sat them to the side for a week before the show, to forget them for awhile for a days. After those few days pass I make a top eight with photo matts possible titles with fitted categories. And some how the day before the window closes to enter them I always end up with six in hand. Then I walk in the gallery on the last day with the six but walk out with one that my intuition told me to wait on. And I like to think it's my process of how I do it each time that make me successful each time. Now that I got that out of the way, on to what you really want to know; what were the photos that won. In order was in the first place was "Gang of Eight " in the animal category which was a group of eight giant Elk watching the hot air balloons flying. And trust me taking that photo particularly was interesting one to get at the time, last year.

We shall see if I get a better one this year. I also had a picture of an flying pelican over the blue ocean waves titled "Low Approach". That was different for me to enter in a contest and definitely hard to get clear shot when those guys fly across the waves. I won first place in transportation with one of my favorite captures from last year! I was secretly hoping that would place at least. It was a capture of a flying airplane in the sky and I titled that "Fly Girl Fly "because it was actually piloted by a female pilot that I saw at Edwards air force show.

Which I left made it in a septic color than printing it in regular color, I think in septic; it grasped the eye to know more about it. And it reminded of a old newspaper photograph.

I won second in the black and white category with birds flying off a cliff on a moody day by the ocean, I titled that one" Cast Ways". I titled that because it kind remined me of the ending of The Count of Monte Cristo. Lastly I had a photo place third in the people category of a parachute jumper flying out a jet and tilted that one, "Coming in Hot". That was also hard to get looking up in that hot sun in July at the base but I will say it was definitely worth looking up.

Looking at the set of photos from that I entered at the end of January. I definitely didn't notice the flying theme or the water elements either until now. I just thought they are all stand out as my best work for the year. And they each said something different to people looking at them in the gallery. Rather than that was the judges or just people looking at them during the show. I hope that I at least inspired one person to create their own beauty .Isn't funny when you reflect on something you did in the past that brings up another theme or meaning being brought in your present moment. And you think , "Oh wow I didn't see that one".

I hope you guys enjoyed this little read and my share of what I accomplished in the previous months. I just have been busy doing some things and living life that I have delayed lot of work but I keep my word; more things will be coming and things will be updated. I have been just a book worm just reading constantly and writing down my notes for the reviews. Currently I am in the world of Stephanie plum's. Lets say I have read three books back to back and I love every single second of it, when I open a novel by Janet Evanovich. I have just been happy in my own world, taking pictures, living life and reading novels. I hope you are happy and living your own little world to the fullest. Till then I will catch you in the next one since I am a little behind as always. X

See you soon !

love always , '

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