January A New Beginning

A whole new beautiful beginning

A few days into 2021 ,feels fresh like the air is a little lighter. To be honest I haven't felt stressed one bit but just purely being happy for no reason other than its a new year. I feel lucky to have all what I have in my beautiful world. Things might be chaotic worldwide and we might be on edge of what could come next in the next days, weeks and months. But I just hope you are still into the holiday spirit still a bit just relaxing into the new year and not rushing into it. Enjoying weather when its the perfect temperature, go for a relaxing walk without any distractions including staying off social media for bit. Then take your time Making goals ,making lists to set up this year's intentions for yourself. And with all your planning, I hope you make your intentions to spend time with your family more then you normally would. I hope above all that you are all having a great start to the new year and it treats better than last year all together. It's your year if you let it be your year,keep your head up and your heart open.

As you know it's my birthday month ,turning another year older . They say aging like a fine wine is where I at in my age. But in my case its tequila with a bit of rum aging with a tad squeeze of lime. See what I did there... And you know where to find me during my birthday either a mini vacation away with a ocean breeze or find me in a bookstore and of course eating delicious food to feed my soul.Both relaxing and both rewarding in their own special ways. And twenty-eight feels likeTwenty- five in my opinion but age is just a number right. I just hope this birthday is one for the books. I thought about my birthday a little earlier then usual around this time. Meaning I sat and reflected on life sometimes at twinkling lights or underneath the starry lights and those endless nights; about where I have been, where I am going and everything inbetween. I said earlier that age is just a number which all true but when a person approaches closer to another decade one has to stop and think about one's life as whole the good, the bad and the unexpected. I am sure I am not the only one who thinks about things like that close to a birthday or a cettain milestone. Just reflecting on everything, feeling blessed for where it has lead me where I am even for the hardships I went through in-between. I know there's more to come in this life and endless possibilities of love,success and peace. I do hope I never forgot to stay a child at heart even I am eighty-five driving someone crazy. That's all I have to say about my birthday this year and no one will know what's my real birthday wish as I blow out the candles on a mini Hawaiian cake. I mean I literally can't tell you then it won't come true, wink. Where ever my feet lead me to is where my next chapter begins in my novel.

As for person misread goes, I promise you stories, book reviews, travel posts and of course photography galore. And you get them in your hands soon. I have a group of book reviews to share and they are quite interesting set of different books. From adventure novels to WW2 novels and a few saucy ones inbetween. Currently I am reading another Virgin River novel which takes place during the winter season. And about written pieces there have a few on my mind that should be released they are just close to heart. Just can't decide when I should release them and if I should do them in parts.

Also I thought it's time to go back in my backlog of trips and share stories,where to eat and photographs that haven't been seen anywhere else. From high eastern Sierra to beachy town around California and the little hidden gems that are hardly shared with the world. And of course I would be a little closed lip about all the gems but give you little secrets about them here and there. And a quick little reminder, okay a shameless plug about misread store. I added a few items in my shop, new mugs, new coasters and new prints! You know where to find the store but get there quick because the shop will be moving in sometime.

In the end, it's a new year, new me. I hope it's a beautiful one with lots of adventures, blessings. There is so much to say that I could turn this first post into ten minutes post. On the eve of my twenty-eighth birthday and possibly too many mojoito in hand but I can easily say the food from blue water grill was fantastic! And the giant piece of mud pie was absolutely delicious and I did share a little bit of it. I have full day of traveling, sight seeing ahead of me with the possibility of a few caramel macchiato in-store.

Here's a cheers!

Best of wishes !

And see you , there's a possibility of another birthday trip ahead as well..

Love,

Misread

Feeling Twenty-Two New Year

Happy 2022! Feeling of twenty-two will be the one year we all have been dreaming about!

When you are see this ,I am writing this on the eve of new year's. Cuddled up on the couch in my new years party outfit that no one will ever see and the fireplace warming up the house. A cup of white chocolate peppermint tea to keep me awake untill midnight, hopefully. What a year it's been, I think we can all agree on that. So many things happened and many things repeated as well. The good, the bad and quite the unexpected that was 2021 in my opinion.

I am hopeful that 2022 will be the blessing year that we all have been wanting, looking forward and what we need. Even if we are all still in a pandemic cycle that hopefully we can go back to being the world that we used to know. Like I said in the title feeling twenty-two could be the golden one ahead. I remembered my twenty-two year was one of best years of my life. Full of love, full of happiness and full great adventures were had during that year.

I believe 2022 will be the same and good things will happen more often and everything we went through from 2021 taught us lessons individually and globally that we needed to learn. We can learn to be free in our lives again ,whatever that means to you. Escaping to another place secretly, dancing in rain, making your dream a reality then waiting a longer. Chase what makes your heart happy, make your soul feel peaceful and have courage to say things that you held yourself back on. Be young again, age is just a number they say anyway. Laugh whenever you can, take the chances you wouldn't take in through the new year.

As you know I always have a word or two for the New Year then a resolution . And in my days relaxing into this year so many key words come to mind. To just pick one or two have been tough to say the least. I keep thinking about possibilities and chasing to be particularly. Now the question iswhy choose those words.

I have been thinking about dwelling on the possibilities. Possibilities are endless in life and sometimes we don't chase the endless possibilities we have. The ones that come unexpectedly, the ones we think about ,day dream about . So coming right down to it my meaning of 2022 is chasing the possibilities. Saying yes the thing I wouldn't normally say yes to. And chasing my heart away to its full extent. Chasing away fears and limitations that I have put in my way. Chase adventures and make my vision of dreams come true . If you could chase endless possibilities without limitations what would you do? Pounder that thought.

On this between to times the new years eve and dawn of the new year. I have to say I am blessed with family and friends I have my life . And of course the wild zoo over here that make every day interesting eithet if I am up for for their craziness or not. I hope you are all having a safe new years and with those you love around. I hope this year treats you well and have grear moments to remember along down memories lane for the future. Take day one of 2022 has the freshest start you ever had. Also that you take this day to relax and write down what you wish for this year . Trust me it well worth wishes then goals.

I decided to give you a full blog post of book reviews I haven't caught you all about the interesting ones, the saucy ones to! And trust me they are all great books! And I am going to explain myself on why I wasn't around to post my usual seasonal posts! And decided to release some of those stories that I have kept under wraps, I may keep talking about them but I promise you will see them sooner than later. So keep on the look out for those post and just beware they will be lengthy ones....you can't get mad at me in advance, I gave full warning from 2021.

On the first day of 2022 , you can find me on the beach as usual with a something yummy in hand meaning caffeine from staying up to late and snacking not from a hungover that I wish I had from a fun night with friends. I find being at the beach on the first day is quite the reflection on so many things. And usually there's less people by the beach on this day so its a great idea.

I suggest any of you by any body of water to give a try first thing in the morning unless you are by snow then do not do that unless you want to freeze. Take your shoes off and just be yourself turn off that phone and be in the moment of the beginning of what's all to come.

Well I think I talked enough for the moment at least, see you all in 2022. I hope you wake up happy ,blessed and not on a hungover on the first day! So much to person misread and more to look forward to. We can only go up from here ,that's how I see it.

Love and peace to you all. I hope you are feeling twenty-two all over again, here we Go!

See you in wee bit my friends, my readers!

Love ,

Misread

Dear Marie : Life without your presence

Disclaimer: This took me a few days to write and let it sit for awhile in my own world. And debated if I should share this and let people into another chapter of my personal life. Dear Marie is about my Nene, my bestfriend and I miss her every second of everyday and I wish my phone would ring and she would be on the other end of that call. If this moves you to tears, I am sorry in advance and know that's never my intent to bring anyone to tears.

In the last few weeks, I have been restless and feeling out of placed in world. I find myself staring into my white ceiling of space till two am just thinking away about life in general, the little things to the big things in life. My television on with one of favorite drama shows fading in the background and yet I wasn't there even watching it. I spent those restless night writing away every I want to say down on paper or keying away and yet nothing seem tangible to put down in physically. They seemed trapped in my own mind and my heart like permanent tattoos of unsaid moments.

And in this moment currently the exact words still escape me. Please forgive me if this all seems backwards and I might repeat myself. Where to start is an understatement of the century.

Today is the day after anniversary of my Nene's passing. And it still feels like it happened yesterday not a year ago in reality. Walking into the same church ,I sat next to her for so many weddings is the moment that feels unbearable for her one year year anniversary . Picturing her next to be on my left, dressed up nicely, her hair done and hearing about her shoes already make her feet sore then handing me her purple iPad with these words, " You make video put on bookface". Yes, I did; if you were wondering if I recorded the video for her. Yes, I was the one in the back left pew recording a wedding as subtle as one could after the loud beep of the recording button being pushed.

In a reality standing in the same church that everyone I know has gotten married in, baptized in; took me back to another time, another life. In the crowed Armenian church of 2021, the smell of burning candles behind me floating in the air above; I closed my eyes and floated away to a time when I was a little girl. I don't remember why were at the church for in the first place but I remember, her being in a simple black dress wearing pearls on her neck and I was in a white and yellow outfit possibly a poke dot style but don't quote me on the style part. I remember her teaching me how to light the candle in my little hand properly and taught me the proper way make the Sign of the Cross in Armenian. Feeling of her right hand on my hand to show me facing the lighten candles, I felt that same moment all over again the same church Twenty- Seven years later on white oak over mine. The warmth of her soft hand touching my little hand then and when I placed the candle for her without her to hand guide me now. The smell of her perfume she used to wear everyday ,I caught a whiff of it over the smell candles opening my eyes as I let my prayer go unspeakable moment that I kept to myself.

Watching the room of full of families that I know and those I don't around that crowed church, listening to priest and choir singing; I was reliving moments from all those years ago and wishing she was here in the same pew where we sat together a few years ago. Looking at that pew from where I stood, I wish she could see the little babies that were just born in the family, I know that would make her smile and at the same time question me why I haven't given her a great -grandchild. Then getting into the same , "Nene lecture" of marriage and children came to my head, " You need one husband and make babies. You are my daughter, you need kid not puppies. But No Money ,No Hunny." And that's the short version and straight to her point. Then my response back , "Took much work, I haven't found one, no one wants me." Then her last response would be , "No worry, I will find one for you and one for me". Standing in that church with a mask on , I am smiling there just listening to her and trying not to cry.

When it came to reading of the names of those her passed on, hearing her name didn't seem real to hear and yet I still think she would just appear from the crowd and say, "No". After her name was spoken then the names of kin came next. When I heard my own name spoken by the priest in a English accent ,he said Casey not Cassie. Making eye contact with some family members all I could do is try not to laugh out loud in such silence because I am thinking about another memory that came to mind. I was thinking about the times when she would write in my birthday cards, Christmas cards each year, sometimes it was to Casey not me exactly but close. Looking back at those times, I never correct her on that either it's what made her special. And maybe that was her funny sign to me without anyone noticing why it was funny to me at least.

Visiting her that day after church, I could feel her presence but not actually touching her with the light breeze flowing. Placing the flowers for her and my Dede seemed to be a dream still not reality. But our family circle around them felt too real for it to be a dream. Standing there holding hands, I can hear voice around me, remembering all the conversation we had together. The voicemails she left on my phone that I still have. The smell of the incense floating in the wind, all of us with our head down saying our thoughts to both of them after prayer. Leaving never seems real, never seems right either as time feels thin each time. As much time I spent with her, with them and the memories I have on my heart, in photographs still feel as if it wasn't enough time either.

Went to a brunch with family around felt like she was the missing piece even if it was for her. Sitting with family I haven't seen in while, just being with them felt like all those all parties, family gatherings with her and I felt like I was waiting for my Nene to seat next to me holding my hand.

Just being in the moment with aunties and uncles talking about her was the most precious thing. Taking about the few things I figured out her recipes without any of her recipes on hand like she has said all my life, "You taste and you know to put more or no more". Finding out Mujadarah is the hardest one to get down, After our second attempt we figure it out. One of the most beautiful thing was hear Nora talking about her, saying how they would have coffee all the time together each week. And growing up I can remember all the wiser ladies and men would gather together and have a mid afternoon coffee each week. When I heard those words I remembered those exact words being spoken by my Nene which I found beautiful.

Looking around the group that joined I see them not as who have aged to but who they all were to another lifetime ago. I can picture my Nene asking someone to help her get something from her car. Knowing full well she was suppose to bring one thing to the party and the back seat was full of platters as if she was cooking for hundreds of people or an army, Cheese borrege, Sarma, Dolma and cookies in-between the other trays. Then head to the kitchen with the platters where all the other ladies are making food for a party. I can see cousins running around playing with each other and now they are adults now. I see my grandfather with his nephews each one of them having a small coffee ,talking and maybe having a cigarette as well after the meal. Also they all share a cheeky grin with each other, I was always wondered if they were up to something but then again they were always smiling. And the younger version of uncles with father around the older gentlemen to but joking around and playing basketball at the same time. Then the ladies would seat down for a minute or two and share a cup of coffee as well, chatting life while holding little ones well. That's what I see another life in another time and yet in the present time too. I can smile about those memories and the memories forming currently.

Dear Marie, I wish you were here right now, in the kitchen the smell of your cooking floating our house. I wish you could tell me how to make all the recipes all over again. I wish I could see you walking in those rose pink slippers in the kitchen. I wish you tell me that we need a vacation to Las Vegas and party the night away. I wish you can tell me that I need to give you great-grand kids. I wish you would call me to explain my father's bookface post of the day to you. I wish I could be watching Big fat Greek Wedding for the one hundredth of time cuddling in bed. I wish I could hear you and Dede's love story one more time. I wish you were braiding my wet curly hair one more time and hear that lullable that you would sing each grand child to sleep. I wish you would be at my wedding, seeing grandbabies and to every special moment in my life. I wish the most to hear the words, " I won't worry and no never."

So, " Nene Don't worry , Don't forget me. Love you."

The unexpected part of life is time. Time can be pulled from us any second and I think sometimes we don't even realize it's happening at the same time of our presence. And if the past year has taught us Time can't be slowed down, even if we tired to make it slow down ,we can't. That we should do everything we desire to in this life, spend time with all of those in our hearts. Let things go, Fix things physically, emotionally with everyone that means the most to them. And Say things you want to say with your heart and soul because one day those words can never be spoken to those who needs to hear them. Never let time get ahead of you.

Thank you for reading this, I hope you enjoyed it and I didn't bring anyone to tears. That wasn't my aim to but to share what's on my heart and a reminder that time can't be paused and make things count in life. And if you read my original post last year, I thank you. And if you haven't read it before, please do; I have it link down below. I think looking back at all of my other work as a whole I ever written in life her piece is one that can't be repeated by my hand or out written by anything else I write from now on, ( In my opinion at least ) and I put every fiber of my being into those words. I Just hope I did her justice as she showed love to everyone she knew or came by. And her presence is missed but I know she around in her own way.

My love always,

Little Cassie