Jan can you see me

Lets all have a collective laugh the best I could for a title this late in the game but it's the best I could do. And who doesn't like a good pun once in a while. So January 2025 what can I say. Hey Hey, did you see what I did there. Okay that's enough, I swear. There was a punch to the first day but a worthy laugh to say the least into the new year!

If you been around here for a while you know where to find me on the first day of each year. Its the one thing I look forward to each year. I couldn't tell you which city I will be each year and yet I will be but my will feet touch sand and ocean water on the first day is one tradition that will never end. The only debatable thing if the coffee will be in hand or not in the present moment walking on the sand and what place to eat at before going home. The only requirements on the first day of the New Year. And that's all I will say. But saying this while on my second cup of coffee before noon on a Sunday on my bed in April writing about January and heavily distracted by many episodes of Greys Anatomy.

The big thing that happened on the first day of the year didn't happen at the beach or at the Neptune's Net. Which by the way Neptune's Net was yummy as usual surprising crowed on the first day to find a spot. I guess everyone had the same idea as we did. Of course I had my usual fish and chips but also with their world famous clam chowder soup. One could never go wrong with either options if I say as foodie and everything is good there regardless what you choice off the menu. One other thing to say on the subject of food is ice cream heaven. Try LE CAFE DE LA PLAGE the line will be long regardless when you go but it will be worth a taste but there's no ocean view to add. I had the pistachio and I think a coffee flavor underneath.

Okay, now that's over the big thing you all want to know and I will try not make it to long winded for you all . So after the perfect first day of the year of course something would happen. I wouldn't think I could escape something not to happen even on the first day. This is including two Starbucks runs later even to add and all coffees had were fantastic. On the drive back home things were just rolling along no problem from Malibu and halfway home. Remember the keywords :rolling along" in this little story. Just driving on the highway and just passed county lines that we heard a poof just a little poof and a thug thug. And my dad and I both said looking at each other , "That wasn't the cups of water". Just a few moments prior from the elevation change the air in the bottles, I was getting rid of air in them. Then Poof happened and the comment we said that the tire light came the dashboard of my car at the same time. The timing is very important to this story. Mind you when the poof happened there's construction on the Highway that hasn't been finished yet and there's the section of this specific highway where it splits off away from any exits of this said highway. Mind you upon reflecting said memory of the moment I'm think about the movie Speed. If you know , you know why I'm thinking about it. So the next few moments there was an exit D and fifteen minutes left on run flat tires and conveniently without complete google search for the nearest auto zone, there was one about two minutes away. Of course turning into the parking lot of said auto zone the tire was completely flat at the worst location of places with a convertible with minimal light to see. These would the evening of day one at 5:27pm. And one bottle of fix a flat inflator and finding a huge nail in the tire . Of course there was no spare tire and no air pump in the trunk either. This is where the laughing started because we are at auto zone and there's only us in the parking lot and what does on do in this situation. Record a video to capture the memory.

And AAA was called they sent one tow then that tow got rerouted to another situation. More laughing happened then magically another tow truck called and they were on their way. Now come to find out that tow guy was from our little town and his name was Zack. I would say small world timing or is it fate at the same time. Ladies ,don't go thinking it was love story brewing from this story but it's a nice thought through. Also in-between us that would make a great story in the books. On the rest way home was rock music playing on the radio, I couldn't tell you what the titles of the songs. I can just tell you that it made laugh all the way home . Knowing full well I got three dogs and one loud JJ that would love to kill me the second I got home. As you know I survived the situation and they forgive me , kind anyway. Sometimes Fate of things leads to a story of our lives to remember that's what makes life unexpected. And we all have a special book we live every day ,each page is different, so are the chapters.

The lesson here is even if in life things can be shit, (And I said that ) you can be the worst situation physically, emotionally at wrong time, place. Look at the positive side of things no matter what. And always remember too laugh even if in said worst situation. Because you can cry, and yell but laughter will change the situation guarantee will also make others around you to laugh, smile to. One other thing if you need to cry but you are laughing to and there's people around say you aren't sad, just half malfunctioning. Hehe. This what I might of said in a worst untimely of events but it was the truth.

I have a lot of things to catch you all about things, life. Some things will be easy to say, some thing I will never say and some things can be left unsaid on a page or napkin. Give me some time I will catch up on posts. And a little prewarning right now these posts will get longer since I'm falling in love again.. with sharing. I been coming back to me for a long time, sometimes I feel like I should hide that a little longer but at the same time not to hide away. I did promise a story or two coming your way. I just have a tight grip on that one story because it means more to me even though I know it's ready to give out to the world the thing , I don't know what the world would say back is the lingering question of life.

I will se you all soon, that's only handful of you or a stadium of you. You all matter. That's where I leave you and I feel good about leaving at that note.

X's and O's

Cassie

New Year 2021

Coming Back to Life

Happy new year, everyone! I hope your last night of 2020 to this morning was peaceful and relaxing. I know the end of the year is usually the loudest and buzziest night with parties around the world and the last night of 2020 wasn't the same as the others but this night was more of a break mentally for all of us and looking forward to 2021 with peace in mind and the possibility of a somewhat do over from the year prior.

Anyway we are in 2021 now, January first, the blank page of our 2021 novel. I hope it's all we wished for and then some. My wish for you all is to fall in love with life all over again minus how the world is currently.

Mini disclaimer: I am currently editing this and finish writing this up on Jan 16th, 2021 , so please excuse the lateness of this ( Is lateness a real word ?) P.s.... It is a real word, I looked it up!

The last few days I have been thinking about who I was on this exact day, last year . That day I couldn't have imagined the year to be what it was, looking back on those days three hundred and sixty-five days ago.

I was in love completely and in love with life it's self, the happiest I have been in a long time. But as life would have it unexpected things turn out instead that year. Feeling horrible most days , many nights full of tears than most people know and that's the honest truth. Days with doctor appointments and the most unexpected moments in history the world shut down and what seems to an never ending pandemic and we still don't know if the pandemic would end yet. Side note , I quit watching news lately , I only watch the good things that no one covers , we need more of the good in this world to be shared. I hope in 2021 that the particular vaccine will help more and we don't see a different type of the virus comes around. Well turns out I was wrong about different types of the current virus coming out... Losing my Nene this year was the most unexpected reality in my family, in my world . I wish we would go back in time and not lose a single person like her in the world , the way we all did. No one deserved to be sick like this and leave this world without their love ones next to them , it's just how I feel about it. Losing her was and is the void of something missing in my heart, in this world and I am sure most people can relate to that. I can easy say that 2020 changed everything from our ways of mundane life, our introspective about things and made our feels of love change as well. That's just my own personal opinion looking back on things in my own life.

Another thing I wanted to express to you all since October 2020 that I haven't expressed publicly I have been toying with the idea , going back and forth about erasing A Person misread completely. Some thought I was kidding, some said I should wait until I fully grieve and some people that never wanted me to even start this journey years ago ,have said ," Why would you even do that? ". And honestly right now , just typing this in here makes my eyes glossy and I guess I hoping someone would understand why I am adding this in. I haven't written any pieces in months, I haven't made any improvements on my blog platform nor have I really picked my camera with the same love for it as I once did. When did start to share something , to write I felt like why I am even doing this? And I get interrupted completely where I just don't even try anymore because No one will understand how I feel about it. I have talked to my friends, work friends, and family members about this in great lengths through texts, phone calls. It's always been more than numbers to me , more than likes, more than comments as well. My work has always been about connection, letting people in, sharing stories that people can relate to when they can't share their own story out loud but using my words to be their voice. An escape from everything in the world from five minutes to fifteen minutes as always been my goal. ( And fyi you would notice a few improvements did happen lately, I have been working on a new layout and more changes coming still )

To be Honest the passion completely left when my heart left is the only way I can explain it in a few words. My purpose that I felt was always my path in life was closed off to me, I could try to write but it was either a sad concept that had no happy ending in site, ( Which if you know my style of writing that's a rare from me to end on a sad note) or I was left staring a blank page physically on a paper which to those who are writers know what I am talking about emotionally. I couldn't even come up with a title even. And before I go any further , Thank you to everyone reading the post about me Nene, to those who shared it. And reaching so many hearts around this world and internationally as well . After all the years on this blog page , that piece has been my most view and the piece that couldn't rewrite that about her if I could minus all the errors in that piece. She always had the touch of touching hearts so every pair of eyes ,reading that one piece , made me full of love when I was hurting. Thank You! Originally I thought I could leave this all behind because of that piece because you all showed up for her and that was enough for me to walk away.

In conclusion instead of erasing A person Misread completely which that's what I was going to do New years day with this Post in fact in the draft before this. On my birthday and officially January 16th,2021; I decided to keep going, something in my heart is telling me , "There's more to do , to share . This journey isn't over, yet ". So I will keep A person misread for bit longer before I let this all go. Friends, family , you can all breathe and thank you for keeping my secret to yourself and the calls and texts convincing me to not stop and helping me open back my own heart again. I need those words , those reminders and the love as well.

Moving on to my usual pick of theme wish for this year, let's all not get to sappy into this beginning year of our book. Someone aske me what's my theme, resolution/ wish, word for 2021 this morning, the day of New Years Day . And honestly I usually have one a month before Christmas even happens. And a reason why this new year post is a bit late because I am still thinking about I want to put out in the world about it.

As I am staring at this for this Year's New year wish is for the world to heal, to have some what normalcy around the world with peace in mind. And Good things to happen to everyone, the unexpected miracles to happen and yes I still believe through all we have been through that miracles will happen. Angels are always watching over us and around us , so miracles do exists.

For my Resolution this year is to be have the success that I always wanted for my career that I started a long time ago, for my heath to be where it was and improve it even more, to help lift others in their success as well. I think we all deserve success right now, in every avenue, every aspect in our lives. To be remined that we deserve success even if it's not the biggest step in our lives but the small steps lead up to the biggest wins. I think we lost that last year and I hope by keeping that my resolution through out this year, it helps motivation you all as well. And a small secret of mine I always had a fear of success and I couldn't tell you why but that is all about to change.

My theme of 2021 is Heal ,being myself without holding myself back like I used to in all aspects in my life. To open my heart , let those in that need to be let in. To be the woman I was raised to be, the woman who fights, whom loves even harder. To the woman who smiles , who is sassy most days and laughs on the kitchen floor then hide herself from the world.

And lastly my word for this year is Freedom. Now if you are thinking why Freedom out of all things. Because when you close your heart, your mind and your soul off like I did, you forget what freedom feels like to just be yourself again. And if you been there before , you understand and if you are there now, there's love, light and blessings coming your way when you open back up. I feel it's a good word to pick for this timeframe because it feels like we are still trapped somewhat emotionally ,physically from the past year to right now in this present moment. We forgot how it feels to be free and peaceful in our hearts, minds and to go where we want, be with loves ones without a concern in mind. We all need to comeback to life after everything , we are here together. I hope you find your own freedom , whatever that means for you.

In closing I hope this post was worth the wait and it makes sense in the end , I spent hours to just make these eight minutes make sense. At least I didn't let this blogpost stay unfinished to long .. Just sixteen days past my deadline , hey it's a start to coming back to who I am. I hope your start to your new year is a beautiful one , you are happy , laughing and making things happen. And doing what you love at the end of each day, its not just work but your love for that work , that makes you challenged ,satisfied in your soul.

Let's go into this year heads up , goals in mind and make the plans we wanted to last year originally it will that much sweeter , to have coffee meetings in a coffee house, birthdays with family and friends without being six feet apart , without masks. Being able to travel without worrying about everything underneath the sun. Having the hugs we missed and kisses from love ones across lands, seas. Don't forget if you love someone right now and you haven't told them how you feel, tell them;

If you reached the ending of this post , Thank you for being here and I will be adding my birthday post like I do every year and I will add the link down below when I am done.

Love always,

Misread

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