Jan can you see me

Lets all have a collective laugh the best I could for a title this late in the game but it's the best I could do. And who doesn't like a good pun once in a while. So January 2025 what can I say. Hey Hey, did you see what I did there. Okay that's enough, I swear. There was a punch to the first day but a worthy laugh to say the least into the new year!

If you been around here for a while you know where to find me on the first day of each year. Its the one thing I look forward to each year. I couldn't tell you which city I will be each year and yet I will be but my will feet touch sand and ocean water on the first day is one tradition that will never end. The only debatable thing if the coffee will be in hand or not in the present moment walking on the sand and what place to eat at before going home. The only requirements on the first day of the New Year. And that's all I will say. But saying this while on my second cup of coffee before noon on a Sunday on my bed in April writing about January and heavily distracted by many episodes of Greys Anatomy.

The big thing that happened on the first day of the year didn't happen at the beach or at the Neptune's Net. Which by the way Neptune's Net was yummy as usual surprising crowed on the first day to find a spot. I guess everyone had the same idea as we did. Of course I had my usual fish and chips but also with their world famous clam chowder soup. One could never go wrong with either options if I say as foodie and everything is good there regardless what you choice off the menu. One other thing to say on the subject of food is ice cream heaven. Try LE CAFE DE LA PLAGE the line will be long regardless when you go but it will be worth a taste but there's no ocean view to add. I had the pistachio and I think a coffee flavor underneath.

Okay, now that's over the big thing you all want to know and I will try not make it to long winded for you all . So after the perfect first day of the year of course something would happen. I wouldn't think I could escape something not to happen even on the first day. This is including two Starbucks runs later even to add and all coffees had were fantastic. On the drive back home things were just rolling along no problem from Malibu and halfway home. Remember the keywords :rolling along" in this little story. Just driving on the highway and just passed county lines that we heard a poof just a little poof and a thug thug. And my dad and I both said looking at each other , "That wasn't the cups of water". Just a few moments prior from the elevation change the air in the bottles, I was getting rid of air in them. Then Poof happened and the comment we said that the tire light came the dashboard of my car at the same time. The timing is very important to this story. Mind you when the poof happened there's construction on the Highway that hasn't been finished yet and there's the section of this specific highway where it splits off away from any exits of this said highway. Mind you upon reflecting said memory of the moment I'm think about the movie Speed. If you know , you know why I'm thinking about it. So the next few moments there was an exit D and fifteen minutes left on run flat tires and conveniently without complete google search for the nearest auto zone, there was one about two minutes away. Of course turning into the parking lot of said auto zone the tire was completely flat at the worst location of places with a convertible with minimal light to see. These would the evening of day one at 5:27pm. And one bottle of fix a flat inflator and finding a huge nail in the tire . Of course there was no spare tire and no air pump in the trunk either. This is where the laughing started because we are at auto zone and there's only us in the parking lot and what does on do in this situation. Record a video to capture the memory.

And AAA was called they sent one tow then that tow got rerouted to another situation. More laughing happened then magically another tow truck called and they were on their way. Now come to find out that tow guy was from our little town and his name was Zack. I would say small world timing or is it fate at the same time. Ladies ,don't go thinking it was love story brewing from this story but it's a nice thought through. Also in-between us that would make a great story in the books. On the rest way home was rock music playing on the radio, I couldn't tell you what the titles of the songs. I can just tell you that it made laugh all the way home . Knowing full well I got three dogs and one loud JJ that would love to kill me the second I got home. As you know I survived the situation and they forgive me , kind anyway. Sometimes Fate of things leads to a story of our lives to remember that's what makes life unexpected. And we all have a special book we live every day ,each page is different, so are the chapters.

The lesson here is even if in life things can be shit, (And I said that ) you can be the worst situation physically, emotionally at wrong time, place. Look at the positive side of things no matter what. And always remember too laugh even if in said worst situation. Because you can cry, and yell but laughter will change the situation guarantee will also make others around you to laugh, smile to. One other thing if you need to cry but you are laughing to and there's people around say you aren't sad, just half malfunctioning. Hehe. This what I might of said in a worst untimely of events but it was the truth.

I have a lot of things to catch you all about things, life. Some things will be easy to say, some thing I will never say and some things can be left unsaid on a page or napkin. Give me some time I will catch up on posts. And a little prewarning right now these posts will get longer since I'm falling in love again.. with sharing. I been coming back to me for a long time, sometimes I feel like I should hide that a little longer but at the same time not to hide away. I did promise a story or two coming your way. I just have a tight grip on that one story because it means more to me even though I know it's ready to give out to the world the thing , I don't know what the world would say back is the lingering question of life.

I will se you all soon, that's only handful of you or a stadium of you. You all matter. That's where I leave you and I feel good about leaving at that note.

X's and O's

Cassie

2025 year of Me

Hi world , I must of written this maybe a thousand times in my head over that last three weeks. Where the words land by the end who knows but they will be honest. Saying goodbye to the year that I had was easiest thing to do, for 2024 going through it was a story in its self. And I could write that story but I'm not going to. I can say 2024,I have cried nearly once a week for the whole year that was an experience of 52 weeks. I can also say this year broke me many times in many places but also made me the strongest version by the end of it at the same time. Because I can break a million times over but I can also heal million times over. I noticed by the end of this year a couple of people asked me the same question, " How does one get through the broken ?" and they would ask me without knowing what I was going through that moment. My answer was and still is," Don't be afraid of the breaking whenever you can. Allow yourself to break over and over till your soul ready to heal". There's beauty in breaking and the beauty of healing at the same time. x

At the same time I'm kind of saying a little Hello to 2025 even through I don't know what's in store for this year either. Good or bad it's a new year, new set of everything including life.

Now I got that little part out the way there has been the happiest moments of my year that no one knows about either. The little moments I captured all by myself, no witness, no posting it anywhere. They were just for me. The girl singing on the top of lungs with only audience was the wind and possible any on lookers when I realized I'm at a stop of red lights then I suddenly act like nothing happened . The girl just choose to date her self for the year even on the days she didn't want to, she treated herself for five minutes or a hour .The girl who tries to be herself even if she shouldn't. The girl who would get dressed up and go no where to be and yet perfectly content in company of a Penna vodka for one and three wild Shepard's running in all directions. You probably would notice I been saying girl not woman. (Insert the Britney Spears's song in here ).. If you get the reference you get the reference. Look up the crossroads movie that's the version playing in my head. Because sometimes healing a girls heart makes a strong woman at the end of the day even of it takes time even if it takes longer than one wishes. I like to think I'm a stronger woman through all the things that's not mentioned and things that are small to others but are massive to me. I always been the type the smallest things matter as much as the biggest things in life.

I been thinking about my word for year and I landed on it's a bit odd word of choice. I thought about it for a while, the word is Selfish. Now, now don't take it as a negative choice of word even if by definition it is. I think of it as being selfish with life a little but in good way. Selfish to enjoy life. Selfish in being myself even if way I talk is a long winded story. My closest friends can contest to my long winded story's or statements , I love words. Selfish in every single away that's is good, to be free being selfish. I think that is as honest I can get about it. Or the word could always backfired in the end but this life. What if this where all leads and goes. I think that statement is a perfect beginning and ending when one doesn't know the answer to something beautiful to the question mark about life. Right?

The funny part is I'm kind of looking forward to being that way even if it's once in a lifetime to be, if its for three months,; six months or the whole 365 days or just a few moments even. Or who knows becoming the word will change the whole direction for my life, my world. I may be a little to excited about this word . I think it will be a fitting word to describe the year and one never knows what could happen the year. I think we can all agree with that statement by each New Years Eve. The unexpected I have learned can always lead to good things even through chaos, through sadness; the unexpected can lead to laughter and one wild story in the end it's how you look at. When was the last time you decided to be selfish for a minute or done the unexpected just for the thrill and nothing else. And on one knew about it besides your own little secret with universe.

Now in retro perspective I wrote the beginning of this post on new year eve with a glass of baileys to close out year watching the ball drop and obviously one I didn't post it or even finish it even through in my pretty mind I thought I did. I did enjoy that glass in bed and fell asleep with phone in hand with the open draft, you see as a published post before you.

I will share what my first day into 2025 was unexpected shocker of events on day one! I'm still laughing about it and to be completely honest sometimes you got say out loud, "I guess this how it was suppose to anyway". In the next post maybe that's where I begin.

I wrote this on the last night of 2024 to the fresh morning of 2025 and clearly I have this thing where in my first post of the year now comes out in spring each year. I promise that is never my intention to always post it that late ( these last few years) but hey at least its written and posted, it exists . I guess life always come first in a way and also I tend to sit with things no matter what it is but especially when it comes to this. This little thing is always me for me. One single place in the universe where it feels right and that's all I will say.

And Happy new year to you all!

Just from little old me.

P.s I been writing other posts, more is coming very soon.

Hi world

I assume the first thing would be where in the World have I been ? See what I did there... Hehe I made a tiny pun. Let me have it.

That at one point was very successful and people around the world read my work, saw my photography. I would also say there has been life changes, heartbreaks and lessons that happens that changes a person in the end. And that person could be in the same office with the same keyboard physically but in the inside of their soul be completely different. That's who I am now. I'm different and yet a little bit of same of the old me. The only way I could describe it. I have been genuinely happy at peace and happy where I'm at right now. It was an easy road, lots ups and downs, lots tear's that the world would never see but the walls would hear. I learned people come and go ,they sometimes stay for while, but each one will carry a piece of you and you will carry a piece of them. You will grief that loss in your own way, you think of them, no one will know that you are besides you. A lot can change in days, months and in a year. I learned into just lean into it is a better way of handling any situation. I can say I'm genuinely happy and at peace with everything is because letting go of everything, if something going to happen, it's going to happen either way. I feel much better, should have just done that long ago in life. No matter what it's called life but also creating history is seconds. Both in the present, past and the future. I had a few friends that know my life say recently ," You are too calm and relaxed. How are you doing this ? " . My response " Its because I choose happiness, now . And let everything go ,really. I can think about the loss of people as in it was chapter. A chapter that I would love to continue but I know it is meant to stay it can but if doesn't. I can see what happened any time I want ; the bad , the good . But don't stay there for too long. Where it went wrong or when it was happy . Its a choice to be happy and be relaxed" .Forgive quickly ,have that cry, have that scream. It's about releasing yourself and choosing to be happy regardless of the crumbling around. So that's where I'm at. Where are you? Think about it for a minute.

Now by that being said , I have tried returning many of times , it just seemed there was always something that would fall into my hands to take care of first . Time and time again eventually I just gave in to it. Because that's what life had in store for me at the time. And of course things fell through the cracks, that I didn't even see. Apparently I'm just the soul that loves stepping up to any plate and take care of things until I don't need to. To know everything around my orbit is functioning as it should is when I know I can touch my world again. It's habit of mine, I discovered. Maybe it's a habit I need to break ,here and there. We might have our own worlds has in families, friends, work but indivually we have own world inside us. And that's important to take care of us too. Because we live that every second that we breathe. I hope that make sense; it made sense to me. And per my author name, I'm misread for a reason if it doesn't make sense... That's okay.

I wonder if this world would be ever a place for me to step back into. Or it would even be thing that I always wanted it to be to begin with. Timing is everything, they say. When I close my eyes genuinely just envisioned what it always suppose to be all along, it makes me feel happy from my head to my toes. And it's a good thing it still makes me feel that. Makes me want that to be true reality, more .There was suppose to be print shop and other things, even through I have the other mini one which you could find on Zazzle. I think it could be better and it will be better. Possibly AKW will be in hands of many, who knows! I'm more open to success then I think I even know yet.

So Hi !

And yes, I'm babbling along and I will continue on. I write how I talk , I want to express myself like you are my best friend regardless if there's a screen between us. Just imagine we are out at some busy loud café but it's cozy for lunch and brew.

Can't believe we are in 2024 already and three months in ,I still don't know how time flies so fast sometimes. So much changed in these days already in the new year. I hope these first three months into 2024 has treat you all with kindness, love and wonder. And if not then you are right around the corner of being good for you. I always kick of the new year with new word that I think would set the tone for what's ahead at least for me. It's what I do. I think it's better than a resolution that sometimes we forget to keep. I know we can't always predict what the next second would be ,but we still try as humans. I might only be three months late but it's better to be late sometimes than never showing up at all. Let me be honest I didn't exactly have a word in the beginning of the year, I was busy on healing myself from my own conflicted injury. By walking and eating it mud not my best moment but Hey; life happens. Don't ask ,how ! You don't want to hear how much my ego was bruised. Back to my word of the year, I thought it would be Happiness at first honestly. And I was going to stick with that word because it made sense. Then it came to me just out of nowhere what the word should be , My word is ME. And I think those two letters make a powerful word. Let me tell you why that little word means putting myself first this year is important. Me being Happy is important to my soul . Me having success this year is important to my inspiration . Me being in love is important to my heart. That includes more self love as well. Me being more relaxed is important to my mind. And lastly Me having more fun that I have before is important because I deserve it. Now I don't know where Me is heading into the rest of the year, but I know where ever I land, it will be good, I'm sure and I deserve it. Right where I belong .And of course life with throw it's curves along the way. I'm sure we could all attest to that!

I did a little poll on my Instagram how long my first blog post back should be, you guys said ten minutes along. Here I thought you guys would want a short blog post that would get straight to the point and maybe long story next instead! But I was proven wrong very very quickly in that little poll. So I guess I can share that I'm writing something very powerful. At least to me. I think it was something I was suppose to write and share. It had many lives ,different versions exist but never saw light. It had different titles as well. I also will say that it's about love of course. What else would I write about ,hehe. But a different kind of love this is about. I think it will make people relate to different moments of the story. It may even make one cry and I apologize if it makes you cry in advance. I hope it was a good cry. It's very deep and personal to me. When I say deep ,I mean depth. It's at the space of heart where I don't share that space for anyone besides my soul. It not the type of conversation I would have over coffee. That space is where I wonder when I write but I hold back what's mine in each story. Think of this next piece has Taylor's Swifts All To Well song but the 10 minute version. If you ever listened to song in depth, you'll get my point. All I have ever given are the short versions of that space in everything I written but I think it's time at least in this era of my life it gets shown even if that's just once. It all depends if you all like it or not ! If not , oh ooops we shall cross that bridge when we get there. And if you are thinking, you are all getting a title out of me now. You would be right! The title is "Knowing Me, knowing You. " That's it! You aren't getting anything else out of me. Even that was too much but I think it was well deserved for waiting a long dam time for a good story! Well hopefully it would hit your expectations.

In closing I'm Back and I hope it's for good because this will always fuel my soul. It brings me happiness in my own little corner of the world on a little island even if I'm the only soul on the island. I know readers will return someday hopefully some day soon. They are just hidden away from this world at the moment. And that's definitely okay. I know nature lovers will come by see my photos. Once they leave the many beautiful hiking trails, fields because if you didn't notice we are spring! And the rumors are this year would be biggest super bloom yet ! We shall see how much of the bloom we get to see. Even though, I'm physically sitting in a snow storm with many layers of 32 degree attire and sleepy pups at my feet. And Trust me I'm not moving a muscle while typing away. Being in nature is better than any city unless there's important food craving then I understand the foodie and nature argument. You might hear more about this foodie opinions in future. There has been another thing that I been thinking about dabbling it. But I will leave you with this, be prepared to feel, to be on journey that will definitely be different. Because I feel everything will be different. But also still being misread regardless of anything else. So lets all enjoy the grammar errors and run off sentences all together! Because I can't help that anyway, it's in my nature any way!

See you soon ,I hope!

Bye for now.

With love,

Me

P.s If you think I have an release date in mind for "Knowing me , Knowing you". I don't. But I way sooner than you think!