2025 year of Me

Hi world , I must of written this maybe a thousand times in my head over that last three weeks. Where the words land by the end who knows but they will be honest. Saying goodbye to the year that I had was easiest thing to do, for 2024 going through it was a story in its self. And I could write that story but I'm not going to. I can say 2024,I have cried nearly once a week for the whole year that was an experience of 52 weeks. I can also say this year broke me many times in many places but also made me the strongest version by the end of it at the same time. Because I can break a million times over but I can also heal million times over. I noticed by the end of this year a couple of people asked me the same question, " How does one get through the broken ?" and they would ask me without knowing what I was going through that moment. My answer was and still is," Don't be afraid of the breaking whenever you can. Allow yourself to break over and over till your soul ready to heal". There's beauty in breaking and the beauty of healing at the same time. x

At the same time I'm kind of saying a little Hello to 2025 even through I don't know what's in store for this year either. Good or bad it's a new year, new set of everything including life.

Now I got that little part out the way there has been the happiest moments of my year that no one knows about either. The little moments I captured all by myself, no witness, no posting it anywhere. They were just for me. The girl singing on the top of lungs with only audience was the wind and possible any on lookers when I realized I'm at a stop of red lights then I suddenly act like nothing happened . The girl just choose to date her self for the year even on the days she didn't want to, she treated herself for five minutes or a hour .The girl who tries to be herself even if she shouldn't. The girl who would get dressed up and go no where to be and yet perfectly content in company of a Penna vodka for one and three wild Shepard's running in all directions. You probably would notice I been saying girl not woman. (Insert the Britney Spears's song in here ).. If you get the reference you get the reference. Look up the crossroads movie that's the version playing in my head. Because sometimes healing a girls heart makes a strong woman at the end of the day even of it takes time even if it takes longer than one wishes. I like to think I'm a stronger woman through all the things that's not mentioned and things that are small to others but are massive to me. I always been the type the smallest things matter as much as the biggest things in life.

I been thinking about my word for year and I landed on it's a bit odd word of choice. I thought about it for a while, the word is Selfish. Now, now don't take it as a negative choice of word even if by definition it is. I think of it as being selfish with life a little but in good way. Selfish to enjoy life. Selfish in being myself even if way I talk is a long winded story. My closest friends can contest to my long winded story's or statements , I love words. Selfish in every single away that's is good, to be free being selfish. I think that is as honest I can get about it. Or the word could always backfired in the end but this life. What if this where all leads and goes. I think that statement is a perfect beginning and ending when one doesn't know the answer to something beautiful to the question mark about life. Right?

The funny part is I'm kind of looking forward to being that way even if it's once in a lifetime to be, if its for three months,; six months or the whole 365 days or just a few moments even. Or who knows becoming the word will change the whole direction for my life, my world. I may be a little to excited about this word . I think it will be a fitting word to describe the year and one never knows what could happen the year. I think we can all agree with that statement by each New Years Eve. The unexpected I have learned can always lead to good things even through chaos, through sadness; the unexpected can lead to laughter and one wild story in the end it's how you look at. When was the last time you decided to be selfish for a minute or done the unexpected just for the thrill and nothing else. And on one knew about it besides your own little secret with universe.

Now in retro perspective I wrote the beginning of this post on new year eve with a glass of baileys to close out year watching the ball drop and obviously one I didn't post it or even finish it even through in my pretty mind I thought I did. I did enjoy that glass in bed and fell asleep with phone in hand with the open draft, you see as a published post before you.

I will share what my first day into 2025 was unexpected shocker of events on day one! I'm still laughing about it and to be completely honest sometimes you got say out loud, "I guess this how it was suppose to anyway". In the next post maybe that's where I begin.

I wrote this on the last night of 2024 to the fresh morning of 2025 and clearly I have this thing where in my first post of the year now comes out in spring each year. I promise that is never my intention to always post it that late ( these last few years) but hey at least its written and posted, it exists . I guess life always come first in a way and also I tend to sit with things no matter what it is but especially when it comes to this. This little thing is always me for me. One single place in the universe where it feels right and that's all I will say.

And Happy new year to you all!

Just from little old me.

P.s I been writing other posts, more is coming very soon.

Are we in March 2023?

I can say this first day of March 2023 definitely feels like the middle December instead of closer to the spring season. Currently I am in the office hiding away all buddle up in 32 degrees attire from head to toe almost. I have the third blizzard making a mess of outside but I got a hot cup of coffee to my right which was brewed perfectly in my opinion. While I am slipping the hot cup slowly just to enjoy it, I have two out of three big shepherds laying on fluffy beds next to the office, guarding me as usual and yet they are completely lights out instead! What am I going to do with these to two? And Max went into another room to hide away with his toys. Then again if I was them, I would be curl up too sleeping the day away. They are quiet lucky pups in my opinion but don't tell them that.

I thought I would start the introduction to this blog post today on this winterly cozy day before I got distracted working on other blogs post even though you will see the other blogs post before this. Hello All !

It's been exactly nine days after I started this blog post, Let me tell you this time they weren't kidding when the blizzard arrived. There was so much snow that I have a shovel snow for a least three days in row just to make a little dent in making path ways for the dogs. The snow level was almost to my knees at some points and other areas it was practically at my hips. I still had snow until this morning when rain storm decided to melt the rest of the snow. I know mason had lots of zoomies for days after the blizzard, he easily got his cardio in each day. Maverick enjoy it when he could lay in the sun within the snow patches. Max just want to eat as much snow has possible before it goes away. They each have their own personalities when it comes to snow. I did get some fun content during the storm and the aftermath of it all. I haven't gotten around to post it all anywhere yet but of course I will when I have a moment. There's a few quite awesome time lapses I took during the snow, hail and everything else. I can confirm the pack I have knock down a tripod and sent my phone flying when they can, but mainly maverick with his tail . But don't worry the phone was not harmed in the process just sent flying repeatly throughout the day.

On another note I did mention in the nourishment post, I did enter in the winter photo contest locally again in the beginning of the year. And I won't keep you in suspense anymore than I have to. Well the turn out was good, there was quite different artists that took part in the contest. Like I have said previously my only aim is to beat my own work each show. And think the outcome was not too shabby this round. I didn't get best in show but Maybe next time, I will snag that one! My outcome was four out five entered which is pretty good in my opinion. The categories I entered in were People, Black and white, Transportation, animals of course. Each show I start out with rough fifty pictures that I think they are the best then from that fifty, I narrow it down to fifteen to print. Then I sat them to the side for a week before the show, to forget them for awhile for a days. After those few days pass I make a top eight with photo matts possible titles with fitted categories. And some how the day before the window closes to enter them I always end up with six in hand. Then I walk in the gallery on the last day with the six but walk out with one that my intuition told me to wait on. And I like to think it's my process of how I do it each time that make me successful each time. Now that I got that out of the way, on to what you really want to know; what were the photos that won. In order was in the first place was "Gang of Eight " in the animal category which was a group of eight giant Elk watching the hot air balloons flying. And trust me taking that photo particularly was interesting one to get at the time, last year.

We shall see if I get a better one this year. I also had a picture of an flying pelican over the blue ocean waves titled "Low Approach". That was different for me to enter in a contest and definitely hard to get clear shot when those guys fly across the waves. I won first place in transportation with one of my favorite captures from last year! I was secretly hoping that would place at least. It was a capture of a flying airplane in the sky and I titled that "Fly Girl Fly "because it was actually piloted by a female pilot that I saw at Edwards air force show.

Which I left made it in a septic color than printing it in regular color, I think in septic; it grasped the eye to know more about it. And it reminded of a old newspaper photograph.

I won second in the black and white category with birds flying off a cliff on a moody day by the ocean, I titled that one" Cast Ways". I titled that because it kind remined me of the ending of The Count of Monte Cristo. Lastly I had a photo place third in the people category of a parachute jumper flying out a jet and tilted that one, "Coming in Hot". That was also hard to get looking up in that hot sun in July at the base but I will say it was definitely worth looking up.

Looking at the set of photos from that I entered at the end of January. I definitely didn't notice the flying theme or the water elements either until now. I just thought they are all stand out as my best work for the year. And they each said something different to people looking at them in the gallery. Rather than that was the judges or just people looking at them during the show. I hope that I at least inspired one person to create their own beauty .Isn't funny when you reflect on something you did in the past that brings up another theme or meaning being brought in your present moment. And you think , "Oh wow I didn't see that one".

I hope you guys enjoyed this little read and my share of what I accomplished in the previous months. I just have been busy doing some things and living life that I have delayed lot of work but I keep my word; more things will be coming and things will be updated. I have been just a book worm just reading constantly and writing down my notes for the reviews. Currently I am in the world of Stephanie plum's. Lets say I have read three books back to back and I love every single second of it, when I open a novel by Janet Evanovich. I have just been happy in my own world, taking pictures, living life and reading novels. I hope you are happy and living your own little world to the fullest. Till then I will catch you in the next one since I am a little behind as always. X

See you soon !

love always , '

Misread

Twenty Twenty Three Nourishment Season

So lets pretend that is my new year 2023 post and this is my January post in one big post.

We all in Agreement ? Yes,great! Happy Twenty three ! I hope you all had a fantastic start where ever you landed between Twenty two and Twenty three.

I feel this year alone is going to be a big year not only for myself for those around me. There's just something about it and some say that the number 23 is a lucky number. So we shall see , what happens and I will report through out the year! Every year I choose a new years word than just a resolution that I mostly won't keep or remember half way through the year. And it works out better each year and the word I choose seem to be fitting for the year by the end if the year. So this years chosen word took me a little while after new years passed to figure out what that single word would be. One morning I woke up knowing what my intention would be for the year and that would is nourishment.

Nourishment. Means more than one thing for me personally and very fitting to my twenty-ninth year around the earth and I will get to that in a minute, I need more nourishment in my life again. The kind that makes the soul freeing , more laughs that lead to laughs on the floor for longer than need be. Nourishment in my own work that maybe is untapped potential, I almost feel that I am going to shock my own self by the end the year. And yes I have already planning how to step out a little more out of my own comfort zone. They say life is about just showing up for yourself and the rest will follow through. And I can tell you that's a life fact that we need to preach more. I already have been giving my body nourishment physically working on the body I want on the inside and out. I do have the soreness to prove it as well. That might be a little to much to information but I said it. Which I am only working on my body four days out the week for a little bit and that's enough for me and it makes me happy. And when I went away from everything , I was already working on my heart and my mind's strength of nourishment aspect. More time to force on pure genuine happiness that wasn't masked. More time out and about, walks in nature not distracted by the phone we are all get attached to. Don't get me wrong I was constantly taking pictures on my phone but I wasn't posting them at all. I guess my point is that I chose this nourishment because I felt like I have been missing that aspect out of life for a while. And that's okay that I did because it wasn't what I need then but what I want now. Nourishment doesn't have to mean just fuel for the body but it can mean so much more mentally ,emotionally etc. It's up to you to decipher what nourishment you need. Friends say I am more relaxed than I ever been before and yet like I used to be at the same time. I can easily say I am and I am more calm then I ever been as well even on my roughest days. I like to think I know this year might have its highs and lows like every year but It will all work out in the end because life has a balance to it. And maybe just maybe all the wildest wishes, dreams will come true. One never knows where things lead and that's probably why they call it life.

Speaking of wildest wishes and dreams coming true, this is my last year of the of the twenties and I can say I don't know where my own time went . One day I was 18 then 21 then 25 , I don't know where 29 came from but it's here . I am sure I am not the only one who felt like this in the in-between stage. Do you remember that growing up people say," One day you are going to blink and wonder how you got to be "old " so soak up these days ?." Well I can say at twenty-nine, I definitely wonder. I would say reflecting back a little but not too far down that rabbit hole of my life, I played life safe but I know I am older soul and beyond my years that could be apart of it. Does that makes sense? And yes that's the shortest synopsis I can give. I don't have many what I call classify as "wild stories " that I have heard from all walks of life. And trust me I have heard plenty of wild stories! Side note I know life doesn't just end at 30 just because it's a number and I know we can always reinvent ourselves at any given time point. Which I hope this year I could soak up as many as I can for the old memory bank. I also plan on not playing it so safe for this year, I don't have an answer on why ,other than why not ? I do feel like this year is my year and I accepting of it . Beyond just happy about it , where ever it leads . It's just where I am meant to be. Before my birthday I got an planner with the cover saying ;2023, the year she got everything she wanted . So I like to think it was already written in history before it happens. Some how I just know already.

And as far as my birthday this year, I didn't go to Las Vegas like I do every year. Which I was fine with that, there's always another time to go and another season to be there. And foodie cravings can wait at the party city. But let me tell you the day of my actual birthday , what could go wrong went wrong and sometimes one just has to laugh about that because I did. As life would have it lets cause chaos and see how she reacts kind of moment, I choose lets just go with it. And of course I requested Birthday do over. Which was good and it was relaxing ,there was beach time, good food and good company plus lots of free coffee. That's all I ever need for a birthday well maybe not three coffees in a row but I have learned at twenty-nine that I can only have two in a row. All the good food I had was nearly from all my favorite places in California. And No, I didn't eat all of the food I love in one day , it was spread over a few weekends. Trust me there was lots of traveling, hiking to walk off the calories of yummy food. There was also a few cliff hikes that led to straight off to the abyss and one string that would hold you up if you fall. Not my favorite part of mysterious walks sometimes but I lived and pretended I was completely fine even through I was dying in the inside and maybe a few tears rolling off my face is I am totally honest. There was a few happy accidents by finding new hidden gems by the sea that I never been to and I been to nearly all locations with a body of water in Cali. The question is will I remember to find those same spots off the beaten path for summer hikes, we shall see together. Minus that I highly recommend you guys check out Neptune's net in Malibu, Brophy Bros in Ventura Harbor and of course my favorite Blue Water Grill in Redondo beach for any occasion. Also check on Johnny's pastrami in culver city on Sepulveda and get the sandwiches just how they make it. Lastly check Falafel Arax in little Armenia, everything is good but my personal favorite is falafel sandwich. Of course as far as coffee shops go I can recommend the two I had during my birthday month , Coffee Cartel and Kamenz Kafe. As you know I love sharing a good food or coffee shop. I can list a whole lot more but I will keep to my top recommendations for now at least. Maybe that will be a future post one day !

In closing this beginning of the : "New year , New journey " post no matter where you are in life and what journey you on right now. Things will balance out in the end everything works out even if we don't think it will, it will. Trust that. Now you guys know that my word of the year is , what's yours ? I am curious to know, let me know. To be completely transparent ,so far this year seems to be blur way to fast so many things has happened that I don't even know what month we are in even. It seems every time I either try to write up a post or something related to misread , something comes up more important. As it stands right now I have a February/ March to finish writing up and at least three book reviews to write and post about . But I got a few questions ," Who has read the Bridgeton series?" And specifically the first three alone, "Which book is your favorite out of the first three?" I got to know ! I do have a favorite of my own. Also my aim over the next few weeks is to write a novella style story that's been on my heart for quite some while . Let's say this story has been living rent free in my head for at least a year. Did you know Stephen king said, if you have the same idea coming back to your mind lot and you can't stop thinking about it , you are meant to write about it. And I believe that writing any story sitting with it for long time before writing a word. A little sneak peak, I already have the title and the ending before anything . The title of the story is "I wish you could of loved me ". I don't know where that story will go but I know it's important to write. I do have good news to report but obviously I will be posting that on the next one! Letting the suspense build a little it involves photos and maybe a few awards.

Don't forget to follow me on all the socials for more.

With my love,

Misread

See you soon !